It’s the weekend

My white pom pom rabbit, now has its pink bow.

Pom pom rabbits. The white one now having a pink bow

I still have not got round with my other bunny. (A lop eared bunny.) Poms poms are made, but it’s motivating myself to shape them by trimming, glueing together, etc.. I seem to have settled with dvd’s.

And that is where this weekend lies. I just plan on watching dvd’s this weekend, with a little bit of housework in between today. That’s my weekend. Dvd’s mainly, with ocassionally looking out my window and see what bird activity there is. I have been observing two pigeons in particular these past two weeks, getting rather matey. If you know what I mean. šŸ˜

I plan to purposely go to the supermarket again just to get a couple if things after the incident I blogged about here, inĀ How are deaf people managing communication-wise during the time of Coronavirus? This is my way of saying to my anxiety, you ain’t going to make me worse after that. I felt I couldn’t leave it until my next shop and so when I went to the shop today, it was to treat myself.Ā 

And speaking of dvd’s. My neighbour bought some more up, as well as some cd’s. I am still yet to watch my other pile from them. Lol I am busy in this department still. šŸ˜

I hear the weather will be nice this weekend, so I think an hour or two is called for sitting in the garden, rather than my flat, having a break from dvd’s and feeling the air.

As you know, since Tuesday, I am back cleaning in my evening job. But rather than evening, I am in a much earlier time, as my shift starts in the afternoon. This continues like this, while we are as a country, affected by this virus, following our Government guidelines.
Going to work, or when I get my groceries twice a week is the only time I go out to walk. I am in my flat otherwise.

It is just me working in the afternoon, cleaning. Another cleaner is in at the morning. Some things we both cover on our shifts, while other areas are given for each of us to do. Only certain areas are covered with only certain amount of staff in, who are restricted to where they can go in the building. It’s strange not seeing my other colleagues who I would normally see in my shift and its weird coming in at this earlier time. But while the country is where it is currently, I am glad I am in at this time, as I think my anxiety would go further through the roof, walking home in the evenings.

There is a possibility of even more extra hours at my workplace. But I have declined those. I am happy to do the extra few I am doing now, but I feel if I do any more than that, than I feel I am putting myself even more at risk. So I have found my limit and my comort zone. Anything more, I won’t do.

I looked for rainbows on my first day walking to work and I have been looking each day after for anymore. I seen 12. One being my neighbour displaying theirs, after I printed one off for them.

My anxiety is the main issue since I have commented in earlier posts about that, since being on lockdown. The thing is, I seem to be good not showing it regardless how I feel. It’s not something I deliberately do, so I put this down to one thing, being a survivor and how it has been said to me by a counsellor in the past, because this is all I have known from childhood with the different things I have had. I just get through it somehow. But please don’t ask how. I don’t know the answer. It’s just something I have done from a kid.

Do you seem to be good at hiding anxiety?

As I have said in an earlier post and I think in my comments, my anxiety starts before I go out to walk and I have had it through my shift too. Then it’s still there till I get home. My throat tight by that point I notice when home. But thankfully it starts to ease before I eat, otherwise I am know to not be able to swallow my food, meaning I can’t enjoy what I eat.

I am hoping my anxiety disappears in the end when going out, but being in a different world, I start to wonder. But my anxiety has decreased a little at work from second day back, if no where else.

What’s your weekend?

Also, do you get paranoid at the thought if you get a sniffle, or more, you wonder what the otherā€™s will be thinking around you? Even though you know it’s not the virus.
Like for example, while writing this, I not had long something to eat and the sniffles came. I am at home, so need to worry about anyone else, with it just me. But if I had been having a hot meal out? Sniffles only lasted 5 minutes or under, after I finished eating a hot meal. But just using as an example.
The other example was my first day back at work. I got the sniffles about half way walking to work, because the air is cool and I am wearing a scarf to take that coolness off. I felt really sniffly, when I arrived. But it gone in about 10 minutes, or under, with being I was in the warmth.
Hayfever season soon for me, so itchy nose with sneeezing possibly at times and you may remember what unexpected issues I had last year, how it triggered my asthma. So I will be paranoid about coughing, if I get it like last year. Although, with being dairy-free, I should find I do not have phlegm issues like last year, which I noticed improvements last year when I had a cold.
I just started my tablets for my hayfever ready a few days ago, in preparation so it is in my system before I start showing the signs in May. But last year, it caught me out with it starting much earlier. I have had tiny symptoms showing odd times in past month, but not to affect me.

‘Coffee promiser’ texted me two days ago, to see if I was ok, with all this Coronavirus going on. I answered back, but just because I have doesn’t mean I am going to keep the ball rolling and keep texting myself out the blue. She can do the chasing. (For those who are new and not aware while I call this so called family member coffee promiser, you will have to just look for that answer in last years posts. They are there somewhere, the answer to that. I am not going back on this story again here.)

A rather different weekend style of post to what I usually write. So if you have read all through, then thank you for reading.Ā 

 

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How are deaf people managing communication-wise during the time of Coronavirus?

I am upset after my shop this morning, at my local supermarket. It all boiled down to me not hearing well as I thought I had and so due to that, I now feel the bad person.

After getting what I needed and knowing as I am paying by cash currently until next pay day and then I will use my card with knowing money comes out ok shopping here, I went my way to a self checkout till. But those were closed. Now as I don’t normally use these, I am not aware until after the event, that there were some more further up. I went to these self checkouts, because they were the ones I used first time last week. I asked a member of staff that I was paying by cash and pointed to the ones closed, what do I do. I thought from her response I got to use an end till to pay by cash. I didnā€™t hear her say there was another lot of self check out tills further down. I just heard till.

I struggle to hear in a supermarket before all this on a normal day because of my deafness and in addition my sensitivity to sound I still have, because of whatever is in the background noise overhead, the tills the people going about their shopping. It’s just noise to me.
I wish all supermarkets in general just stop the background noise full stop and not just make it quiet for a short time (I think an hour) once a week for autism. We don’t need music, or whatever it is in the shops overhead. It’s not like I am going to a disco, or whatever. I am trying to understand store workers who I don’t know, so not going to be able to lipread all the time and it’s tiring too. This all is increasing my anxiety.

But in addition, we are now all facing difficult times as we all have to make changes and I find hearing someone 2ft away, in noise, absolutely impossible to hear and I can’t lipread them due to different factors like for example to give a few:

  • Do they speak clearly
  • Are the lip patterns clear to me
  • Do I know them? Because it helps, if I do.

So I am looking at the rows as I walk down and all I can see are checkout tills. I am looking at the till in the distance with the basket sign, thinking as this is last till maybe she wants me here. But no one was on I could see, so I didn’t walk that far down. I went now to what I think was next last manned till, my anxiety already at its peak before I reach here and I load my items. Out comes my note. The cashier saying I can’t except cash. I could not pay by card because I have no cash in my account to account for this shop. Not until next pay day, with me still in my month where I am paying by cash still. I pointed out I was told to come further down, when I queried further up near closed self check outs and so I thought I had to come here. I said to him I was aware of using self check outs to pay by cash, which was why I queried further up at the closed ones I was paying by cash and so I would use them. But I wasn’t aware of there being some more further down and I did not hear that being mentioned. I did not see those self checkouts, otherwise I would have used them. He accepted my cash this time, but pointed out I can and will be refused next time.
Again I told him I was aware I had to pay cash at a self checkout and I was prepared to use them. But I did not see them and I was not aware of further self checkouts further down.

I did not hear about the part that there were futher self check out tills further down. I just heard tills.

I did not see those tills and I wasn’t aware of them until aftrr this event at the till.
I would have happily put my groceries back into the basket and gone to those tills than have that embarrassing conversation at the till, that made me look and feel I wasn’t complying, when all I wanted to do was a self checkout originally and get out of the shop as quick as possible, with my anxiety and not wanting to be around that many people right now in the world we are living in.

I totally respect the store colleagues that have no choice to be in this situation. But please. I am not the bad person I was made to feel.
I did not hear as I thought.
I did not see the other self check outs. Which if I had, I would have used, because I do comply with what you would like as a supermarket. This was loss of communication due to my deafness and the noise in store and having to now stand 2 meters apart from a person, that I did not hear that vital piece of information.

 

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Last day of March

It’s the last day of March and it doesn’t feel real. From since last week, while not working in either jobs, I have been forgetting what day it is. Thank goodness my phone works to tell me the day. I know I forget, but my goodness, forgetting what day it was practically every day, from first day I wasn’t working. It felt a little extreme for me forgetting so badly at this level. But I bet I am not alone.

Well… from today, things change a little for me. I will be working from today in my evening job, after they asked me if I was fine with this. Although it won’t be be in the evening I am working, as my shift will start in the afternoon, for four hours. I am glad while things are as they are currently, that I am in earlier. So as I will be doing this, means I will get my walk in while I am at it. I never went out for a walk otherwise, than when it was to the shop twice a week for groceries.

Since the lockdown where we could only go for essentials, health reasons, work if it absolutely could not be done at home and just for exercise while observing social distance, I have anxiety on the idea of going out and when I am out walking. This anxiety being the cause of how other may behave in a negative way, rather than the virus. So I hope by going to work Monday to Friday again, that my anxiety will go.

As I was writing this post, I received a text from my counsellor. She wanted to check up on me and see I was doing ok in this awful time we are all at, at the moment. So a few text chats back and forth have been happening this morning.

 

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Other pom pom crafts you could try

Here, I share links to other websites/blogs for pom pom craft ideas. Including the blogger that inspired me to make my bunnies and chick.

 

So there’s a few for you to have a go at if you want to and for anymore, just Google and see what you come up with.

Display your rainbow

Rainbow with words stay safe

You may have already seen, or heard about rainbows being displayed in windows in the UK, as well as other countries.

Have you joined in and displayed yours?

You can get your own rainbow from Pensitivity 101, if you like this one pictured in my post. Or you can be creative and paint one, like others have done and that I first seen and heard about elsewhere.
However you choose to do yours, do spread your love and care by displaying a rainbow in your window.

I did mine double-sided, so I could see the rainbow too.

You can easily Google, or if you Facebook and Twitter the following hastags and see other people’s rainbows:

#rainbowsinwindows #chasetherainbow

 

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Chit-chat it’s the weekend extra

Well… here’s an extra post for you this weekend. šŸ˜ This post is in addition to the one I aired this morning. So I hope you enjoy reading this extra post and commenting here too, as well as at my earlier post aired today. šŸ™‚

I realise I need to stock up on my own music dvd’s, after watching the neighbours collection. I have forgotten just how much I like my music this way. The last time I had a music collection to watch was when I had VHS tapes. Remember those?

I intend to buy the following as a start to my music dvd collection at some point, second hand, when things settle:

  • Queen Live at Wembly
  • Bon Jovi Crush
  • Take That The Circus Live

These were in amongst other music dvd’s that my neighbour lent me. I played in particular Bon Jovi, on more than one occasion. It felt like having my own concert. I was dancing away at times.

And just when I thought again I must have watched all of the neighbours collections after dropping the others off at his door today, while observing social distancing, I have a few more dvd’s to watch. šŸ˜

He has also lent me some cd’s. They are all by the same group called, Apocalyptica. I have never heard of these until now.
As he knows I like 2 Cellos, he thought I might like to listen to these. I am playing one now and I am enjoying it.

What’s your preference when it comes to listening to music? Watching, or listening? Or is it both?

You will remember inĀ My views for today that I contacted my mum’s social worker. She got back to me the next day to tell me her case was closed. This was because as there is no plan of discharging her yet because she is not well enough, means she is not able to support her. When her case was closed, I do not know long ago this was and I don’t intend to ask, because I know I will be fuming. I expect it was closed some time ago. But what happened to keep updating me when necessary that I gave permission for? She pointed out the ward are aware of her finances etc. That’s the only part I don’t have faith with on the ward, due to what was coming through mum’s mailbox, before I stopped playing my part, as it was obvious they had not been informed. But as I said to mum last year, that final time I seen her. I’m done. It’s her mess.
There has supposedly been another referral made, but she’s unsure of the details. Someone would contact me in the future, as this social worker is leaving. With also this Coronavirus, means also priorities have changed.

It doesn’t surprise me that mum is not well to be discharged and although I know I have not seen her since November, I still don’t see that situation changing. It’s all down to my mum. I am watching from the sidelines still. I have to continue doing what I need to do to keep myself well and safe. It’s not what I ever envisioned. But this is, what it is.

 

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It’s the weekend

I finished my book last night, that I mentioned in last week’sĀ It’s the weekend post. I found it gripping all the way through. But although the book had an ending and you knew who the killer was, it was rather an abrupt finish. But I still enjoyed it.

Today will be dvd’s, after some household chores.
I also plan to repot my Peace lily, as roots are showing outside the pot.

Tomorrow, I think I will do a bit of colouring too. Then a dvd later in the afternoon, to early evening time, while pampering my feet and if I feel like it, I will paint my nails.

What’s your weekend plans?Ā 

 

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Fibbing Friday – 27th March

It’s Fibbing Friday. How to play and where these questions came from today, then please visitĀ https://pensitivity101.wordpress.com/2020/03/27/fibbing-friday-27th-march-2020/

1. What was the significance of the little white dot on the TV screen at 11 pm?I tried Googling this one to see what it was. But I couldn’t find anything. So please tell me the true meaning of thus one. In meantime, my ridiculous lie: It’s supposed to be a one minute warning to let you know you coming past your bedtime. Adults need to be told it’s time for bed too. If after 11.05pm you have not turned your tv off, the tv will explode in 10 seconds.
2. Who were the Woodentops?Ā Long distance relatives if the woodpecker family.
3. What is meant by the Gravy Train?A long squishy ride.
4. Who sang about flowers in the rain?The flower pot men.
5. What do the initials MP stand for?Mindfulness Prick.
6. What was Jiminy Cricketā€™s job?Ā Minding the cricket field, while observing to his left and to his right.
7. Why are diamonds measured in carats?They were thinking about their vegetables at the time.
8. What do Kimball and Hammond have in common?Ā Hamsters.
9. What is a swizzle stick? Nice sweety flavour candy. Long ever lasting.
10. What are chick peas?Ā Easter chocolate.

My views for today

Roses and sunshine a view from inside my flat

I chose to lie in this morning and have a relaxaing day.

It’s lovely and, sunny and my roses as you can see above, are still doing well.

I finished my chick, as I shared in a post before this one.

I was going to have a chippy at lunch time, but my local chippy have changed their opening times to just evening. So to not waste my journey I went into the supermarket, as it is just opposite, to get my essentials out of my remaining budget of this week. So I won’t be going again until Tuesday preferably. But it may be Monday.
On observation at my supermarket, the entrances are done so that one is exit and other entrance. I could clearly see the exit, but another chap ahead of me who seen it just last minute still tried to go in through what was now exit. But he didn’t get far, just like another after in front of me tried and he was told to go round to the other entrance to come in, which just adds only a few seconds to your walk. So not that hard is it, to just follow instructions and do as you are told.
As I have cash, I am already aware from my email received from this supermarket yesterday, that if paying by cash, they like you to use self-service tills. I don’t like em. But I used it without making a fuss. I was in and back home in 20 minutes, which was my plan. They had tape near the checkouts to help you observe the social distance.

Not long ago, I decided to email the ward that my mum is on, to see how they are doing on there, since this Coronavirus has come about and checking if they are allowing visitors on, or stopping it for the time being. (My last contact with the ward was November.) Pointing out though, that I won’t be coming anytime soon, even after virus has cleared out the country. I just wanted to check and see if mum was getting involved in any of the activities they are doing on there, that I have been looking at on their Twitter account for the ward.

I also decided to email mum’s social worker after. Last time I heard from her was January. I wanted to check in particular my mum’s bungalow, that she hadn’t lost it and if she was able to work with my mum to sort out in regards paying the rent she was owing.

Been in conversation with my morning employer via their app we use this afternoon, after their update on their newsfeed. A worrying time with regards to this one, whether I get my wages from the point of where I had to stand down in my job. Time will tell later. Especially if portal has not been created by then, that employers will need to use to claim wages Government said they would pay, for workers affected. I was worried about dipping into my savings again, if that’s the case that I am trying to build up for my long term goal. But when I think about it, I shouldn’t find it tight this next pay as I first thought, but it’s the month after that, if it’s not sorted and we are still in the same scenario.

Although it seems I have been busy, today has been a more rather laid back affair and it will continue like this for the remainder of the day. Enjoying the sun coming into my flat.

I plan to continue reading my book once this post airs and then watch a dvd, or two. I may pop back on this evening here. I may not. I’m going with the flow.

 

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Hello chick

So the same person who inspired me to make my own pom pom bunnies, has also gave instructions on how to make a pom pom chick: https://ourlittleredhouseblog.com/2020/03/21/diy-pom-pom-chicks/

Here is my pom pom chick.

Pom pom chick in yellow colour wool

And my pom pom chick next to my pom pom bunnies I made earlier in the week.

Pom pom bunnies and pom pom chick

 

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