I have now reached the stage of where I have reached 100 followers, which soon went to 101 after I received this notification on my WordPress dashboard.

I thank every one of my 101 readers for following this blog, sharing this blog and commenting. I have met and I have continued to meet some lovely bloggers with this blog and through reading, commenting and following yours.

I know there will be many more that will probably join after this and further posts airs in the future, so I thank you also in advance. It’s nice to hear that you enjoy reading, or commenting on this blog and to hear about it, I appreciate.

Thank you again. 🙂



Blogger Recognition Award

I have been recently nominated for the ‘Blogger Recognition Award,’ by Megan from simplynorthern. Thank you Megan. 🙂


I have been following Megan’s blog for a while for a broad range of reading from mine and to read someone else’s views. If you have not taken a look, then do pop on over.


  1. Write a post to show your award.
  2. Give a brief story of how your blog started.
  3. Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers.
  4. Thank whoever nominated you, and provide a link to their blog.
  5. Select 15 other blogs you want to give the award to them

How I started

This blog started because I needed to write for therapeutic reasons. Although I could have done this privately, I decided to write this public blog because I also wanted to get rid of the shame I felt due to my childhood experiences affecting me now as an adult.

This blog was my outlet to release what ever I was feeling inside, while having counselling sessions and my blog has continued still after these counselling sessions have finished. This blog now helps others and maybe also gives awareness to those that read it. My blog writing changing depending on how my mood is, but I like to keep my blog as positive as possible.

Advice to new bloggers

  1. Be you. Being you reflects in your blog posts, helping your readers to get to know you and vice versa. This then reflects in your posts.
  2. Passionate. Write something that is passionate to you, or what you like, whether it be something on a personal level or a hobby you would like to talk about and share. By writing about something you are passionate about, you will continue to write about it, without it feeling a chore and you will enjoy it. Blogging is fun after all.

Bloggers I nominate

  1. A Kinder Way
  2. Nichi Health
  3. Courage Coaching
  4. Summer Starts To Shine
  5. Letters To Life
  6. Steve Rose’s Blog
  7. The Lonely Illness
  8. dbestptsdblog
  9. Patricia J Grace
  10. A Life Less Ordinary
  11. Sarah Returns To Life
  12. A Runnaround Life
  13. Nature Knows Best
  14. Free Your Soul

I do hope the nominated blogs will join with the fun.


I know when I have not felt good, or I have felt low, or depressed, I have mostly done well to pretend that everything is ok. A habit I have done for many years because then, when I first used to pretend all was well, it was because I felt alone and I did not feel I had any friends close by.
When I started being around people who knew me, pretending all was well when it wasn’t, proved to be difficult at times, because they knew me well enough.

Although now I will still have a moment pretending all is well, when it isn’t, mostly I will say when I am not and what is wrong. This is because I am in a place where I feel I am not alone now and I feel I belong and wanted in this world.

Do you pretend you are fine, when you are not?

This post was inspired by The Daily Post; Daily Prompt: Pretend.

The Doctor Who Gave Up Drugs (BBC) – my thoughts as a medicated patient

I have watched “The Doctor Who Gave Up Drugs,” this morning on the BBC iPlayer. This documentary comes in two parts and I did nearly forget to watch it until I seen Sarah’s post, (which I re-blog here.) Watching the documentary was an eye-opener, but also in parts, it has proved to me what I have said in the past to friends that eating healthier and doing some form of physical exercise to suit you, makes a big difference too. If you have not seen this documentary then I strongly recommend you watch it.


I have not seen such an eye opening programme for a long time. If you take a paracetamol for every headache or feel disappointed when you don’t come away from the doctors with a prescription, I would thoroughly recommend watching it. By taking some time to listen to patients’ individual needs, this doctor managed to wean chronic pain sufferers off their codiene and halve the dose of antidepressants for a woman who had been on them for years. It has totally changed my perception of prescriptions, but those of you who know me may be thinking YOU HYPOCRITE. I am currently taking a lot of tablets, which I believe are necessary, but that is not to say that they are necessary for everyone.

I cannot deny that drugs are currently responsible for my ability to function

I am a great believer in trying talking therapies before medication. Pills will never…

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Virtual coffee – late September

If were having coffee, we would be meeting up where ever you chosen this time. So where would we be?

As you know from our last virtual coffee chat, I had a dilemma at the dentist. Well, I seen that letter the Surgeon had written to my dental practice and HE HAD written that a re-root canal would be needed to be done on that tooth! (This, as I mentioned before, was never pointed out to me.) So it was surgeon from hospital and not my dental practice that I am to be upset with.
My Practice Manager discussed why I would need this doing, which I now understand. But like it was mentioned by dentist last week, when this all first came out, it is a specialist job she said. So I said to her, as I said to dentist last week, that the surgeon, had I chosen re-root canal instead of what I did choose, he was going to send me back. So this was also why I chosen surgery over RC, because I wasn’t going to be passed back, as I was also aware that this would need a specialist to do this treatment.

I discussed when I would have to have RC done. Like, was there a time limit, like when bone comes back round tooth, or before? I learnt I could have it done when I felt ready. So I talked about how I was now and how I was when I had the surgery and what I was feeling at this point, to come to the conclusion that I would have RC as soon as I can and get it over with.
So Practice Manager will be dealing with this herself, so she can tell them why she is phoning, (because she had to explain to me what the surgeon did not explain clearly to me and how I was very upset to learn this later and not before, where I could have prepared myself for it.) And to ensure that when they do refer me to them for RC, that the surgeon isn’t just going to send me back.
When she heard from them, she emailed me back to confirm they would do re-root canal treatment and so I have been referred. So I now wait from them.

As much as I was adamant I would not have another RC done. Now it has been explained to me why I need it, it would be stupid of me to not to have it done, as it would have been a waste to go through what I have been through so far.

If we were having coffee, I’d be telling you how I went back to Ollerton Watermill, with my Mum. This was so I could show my Mum the place and we had our lunch while we were there. Mum had not been here before and enjoyed herself. We then went to Edwinstowe to meet up with my friend at a cafe we have all been to before. We all had a sweet of some kind with a drink.

If we were having coffee, I would be telling you how I have been organising my home a little.
One was creating a “Home File” system, (which some of you might know it being called as a “Home management system.”) The other was sorting out my under stairs cupboard.
My under stairs cupboard now has a 4-tier shelving unit and now my belongings are on there, instead of being on the floor. I can see clearly what is in there now and I have also managed to get my hoover in there, which is an added bonus.

I also looked into possibly having a new fence up, but after receiving quote, this was a no no, for many reasons. But I am looking at alternatives to make my garden private, which are trellis planters and some other things, so until outside is sorted, my sanctuary continues to be inside my home, or other gardens or parks I visit.
I know I need to focus on my garden right now, so it’s a distraction for me, with how I am since my tooth surgery and with what I have to face next. It has been physically and mentally draining.

If we were having coffee, I’d be talking about how I caught up with her family member and her husband. I met them down Mansfield for a couple of hours before going home. I had lunch with them, while we all caught up. It was lovely.

If we were having coffee, I would be talking about how one of my courses I talked about in our last coffee chat, that I thought looked daunting, turned out not to be daunting at all.

I also heard from WTC and everything is fine, so changes are needed to be made with this benefit. I will see how I go into next year, but if I find it stressful as I did this time, I am still two minds to continue with this. Hearing so much bad press about it, I still wonder is it worth it. All being well, my circumstances change before then and I won’t need to continue with it.

My weekend is going to be busy in some way coming up and I have a bit of a full week after.  So my weeks have and are going to go quick.