You will find I shall be quiet talking about Christmas, except for this post and another post sending you just Christmas wishes.
Over the years, I have become less excited about it, with exception the odd times where I kinda look forward to it last-minute. This year is very different though. Although I have been recently making plans with family and friends, the spark is not just there. Today, I have even put up the Christmas tree where I volunteer and it has not sparked me to put my own up. So whether it will go up in the end, I just don’t know.
Christmas is different this year and I am probably not having the spark because of what is happening to a relative. We are all finding it difficult in our own ways as we see the deterioration, of our loved one. Originally she was not expected to be with us long, but when she was moved into the nursing home, she picked right back up. But that deterioration is back again. Each day is getting more predictable, with the odd good day.
I wasn’t going to talk about Christmas, or this, because with my post being a negative post for Christmas, I did not want to spoil Christmas for anyone else. But if I did not post this, then I feel my honesty I write on this blog usually, I feel I would be holding back if I did not air this post. I know I won’t be the only one who is not looking forward to Christmas anyway and you could be one of them reading this post right now.