How to Embrace Self-Care

Talking about self-care in my previous post today, as a reminder for myself and to let you know what I was doing since my disappointing blow, I thought I’d look at other blog posts on self-care for further inspiration and I found this one. 🙂

self-care, yoga, meditation, health, nature,Trust me when I say, I know self-care can feel like another thing to add to your already overwhelming to-do list. When you’re already busy with just getting through the day-to-day stuff, self-care feels like a chore, an extra effort you just don’t have the energy, time or inclination for.

But trust me also when I say, self-care is worth the effort and will actually renew and boost your energy, creativity, and service to the world, whether that world is your family and loved ones, your community and society, or the planet at large.

Self-care is a sacred act if it’s done mindfully and with intention. When you take the time and treat yourself with love and worthiness, your cup truly will overflow and affect everyone around you.

If you start your self-care rituals slowly, with even minimal commitment I have faith that you’ll feel the benefits. Magically you may…

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Rewiring my brain to stay positive after my disappointing blow

After this post; Another disappointing blow which I shared my disappointment with you of not getting the job, I have since tried to keep a positive mind. Keeping a positive mind and going to a workplace I find where my self-esteem is challenged because of what has happened in the past and also this year is very tiring. Some days I just don’t want to get up and my anxiety can kick in some way. It’s hard work when you don’t feel appreciated and just don’t have a clue with your own department no more, which has led me to have no faith or trust because of what has happened,past and present. It has been soul-destroying at times and I had to take antidepressants, as well as counselling to help with this and past childhood issues that came out.

So what am I doing to try and keep this positive mind?

  • As SummerSHINES mentioned in the above post in my comments, see the job as temporary. This is something I have heard before while having difficult moments and it does help.
  • If I want, or need extra hours, then I am going to see this as temporary also. But also I have control in where I would like to clean, by picking of a list that takes my fancy. So I could pick an area where I know it will only be me cleaning it, if I wanted.
  • Try to make sure I continue to practice self-care.
  • Continue with my current studies and enjoy the moment and experience.
  • Continue to enjoy the experience of my driving lessons and look forward to what the future can bring with this.
  • Continue to do things that will take me outside my comfort zone, when I can.

Antidepressants – back to one a day

It was my review with the doctor today for my antidepressants and I am now back to one a day when it comes to taking them, after chatting with him. (Instead of one every other day.)
He is happy for me to be on them for some time if needed, with the strength being a low one and has not said about me coming back in so many months this time, so I imagine it will crop up in a much later appointment, or when I am just due for the check later when it becomes zero on my repeat prescription.

I let him know what I was doing and the situation still at work, along with how I feel about that. So it was after that conversation that he decided I should go back to one day. Unlike my work department, I trust my doctor and so I am happy with what he suggests.

While I was at my doctors, I also asked if my hay fever tablets could be changed to a non-drowsy one, because of me learning to drive and hopefully a car driver one day. I mentioned how the instructor brought this up regarding medication in general and checking that they don’t affect your driving. The doctor was happy to do this, but pointed out that even non-drowsy medication can make you drowsy. If I felt they were not good for me, I could go back and be given something else.

Shaping General Practice (GP) Services for the next 5 years

In yesterdays Chit chat post, I mentioned about attending a meeting not far from me, (as the title says.) The meeting was for 2 hours, starting with welcome and introductions and then an overview presentation from a Director of Primary Care.
Afterwards, it was workshops, based on the following:

  • Access to GP services
  • Maintaining a healthy lifestyle
  • Mental wellbeing
  • New roles in General Practice

In our groups on the table we spent so long on each of the above topics, coming up with our views in ways to improve things in those areas. There were lots of suggestions from everyone that attended this meeting, from all backgrounds.

I went to this meeting so I could put in a suggestion regarding a certain access as a deaf person that I would find helpful and what is already in place, so there is nothing new to add other than use it. But although I went primarily for that reason, I felt I could contribute to the other above topics hugely and I found the whole meeting very interesting.

For those that attended the meeting and also if you could not get and are in Notts, then there is a survey link where you can share your views with NHS Mansfield and Ashfield Clinical Commissioning Group and NHS Newark and Sherwood Clinical Commissioning Group, here. I don’t know how long this survey is running for, but I do know it will be running all this week and possibly next week.

Chit chat

I forgot to mention in The way I use my internet – update how that although the internet did not work out as I expected and I had to go on a contract one, that it still worked out cheaper for me than my original landline phone and internet. So I still made it cheaper money-wise.

Yesterday, I went on an unexpected day trip with a friend, paid for by her. So I only needed spending money, which I just spent when it came to our lunch and nothing else. We went to Sherringham, which the last time I went there with the same friend, was in my late teens. So my memories of Sherringham were vague. As we went round though, some memories of recognising the place came back. I took a couple of photos, but it was just for using later when I use a new computer, to see if I see my images as they actually are.
This new computer, I am paying over several weeks, but I know I will get it paid much sooner than this. Although it was not planned, it was a bargain not to miss and because of the price I was dubious if anything was wrong with it, but I have seen it working and I am happy with what I see. It’s an iMac, 21 inch screen, so this will now be my main computer. I still have my Macbook Air laptop and it is no way being made redundant and will still get used. I am hoping when I come to taking future photos, that I will see my images for what they truly are, so that if they need editing before printing, then I can do so accordingly. Since having the compact camera I have, I have found that when it came to printing my photos, they were darker than they looked on my MacBook Air laptop. So I am hoping this new computer makes a difference. If not, it is still not a waste having it with it being a bigger screen, as I will do my Zumba up there, via my DVD.
When I used to own a Nikon DSLR camera and use the automatic setting, (although I used other settings on this one as I experimented), I never had he problems as I am having now with my compact zoom camera. Another past compact camera I used to own of the same model as this one, I never had this issue either when using the automatic setting. It looks like more practise with it, or looking at a Nikon compact camera instead with a zoom.

Today is a busy day for me, I shall be getting some compost in, ready from when my trellis planter gets assembled this week. (By the way, I have not forgotten a post from my garden, I just need to get round to it.)
I shall see a family member who has been encouraging me with my driving and give this person an update. Then I will be having lunch nearby, before making my way to a meeting nearby, regarding shaping general practice (GP) services for the next 5 years. The place where this meeting will be held, I have not been to before and on top of not knowing anyone, I know my anxiety will be on edge. How much till I am in the situation, I don’t know. I could be surprised and find there will be someone else there I know.

Driving lesson update

What a difference since this last post; Car driving lessons update, there has been a slight change with my driving later that day on 16th June. (Although my instructor would say a big change.) I am thinking as in small change to how I feel the car currently. As you know, my concern is knowing when to change gears, whether up or down. I can now feel when it is time for the gear to go up, so a sense of achievement on that part. 🙂 So I am happy I can now tell this way, even though on the dashboard it will tell me too. Although I now have this reassurance, my confidence is still low and my anxiety high. I feel an extra lesson a week would help me, but sadly the instructor could not fit me in as I observed my phone to see if I may receive a text to see if I was available, should there been. So I knew he just could not fit me in.

The lesson I had the week after, (23rd June), I had still improved from the previous week. Although I still had anxiety, it was better and my confidence was a little better in places too.
I was driving with prompts when I needed them and in places where I had no experience in situations I was in, I was guided. To say I was now driving on a more public road and when permitted, at higher speeds, my anxiety levels kept at the same level with just the odd peaks. With my anxiety in check the best I could, I felt a bit more in more control with what I needed to do.
When I was in areas where I could do up to 60mph, I could see I was doing nearly 55mph, but my instructor said I did 57mph at one point. He could see I was not comfortable with this, as I warned him prior. He said he would not have put me in this situation, if he did not think I could do it.
What I did not think I would end up doing, but I did, was to drive myself home. Although relieved when home, I felt good. 🙂

I tried a different pair of trainers for my lesson, having my others as a back-up, just in case there were not suitable. I turned out I was ok with them and an added bonus that I could feel my feet touching the clutch, break and gas pedals, so this gave me some reassurance as a deaf person. It has made me realise I rely on sense of touch more than I thought.

The Blue Sky Tag

I have been tagged by Elsie, at “Ramblings of a writer,” for the Blue Sky Tag. Thank you Elsie.

So here it goes…

  1. Thank the person who nominated you.
  2. Answer their 11 questions.
  3. Tag 11 people.
  4. Give them 11 questions to answer.

My 11 questions to answer:

  1. Favourite author?
    I don’t have one.
  2. Favourite book?
    I once owned a book called, “Scrub dog of Alaska,” by Walt Morey. It was a hardback book that I had read three times. The story is about a runt sled dog, raised by a young boy. The dog’s cruel owner demands his return.
  3. Favourite colour?
    Purple, but liking bright blues and greens in parts of my home.
  4. Favourite food?
    Pasta, fruit and veg.
  5. Favourite movie?
    “City of Angels,” because I liked how it was done and there was no swearing. Nicolas Cage and Meg Ryan starred in this movie.
  6. Favourite TV show?
    I don’t watch TV now as you know, but when I used to watch TV, I liked to watch Dr Who.
  7. Favourite comedian?
    This one is easy to answer for me. It is Lee Evans.
  8. Favourite actor/actress?
    Robin Williams and Nicolas Cage.
  9. Favourite child?
    I don’t have one.
  10. Favourite vacation?
    Brighton.
  11. Favourite dream fulfilled would be?
    Full-time work in a job I love and owning my own home.

So now it is your turn. If you are reading this, then you are tagged.

If you would like to join in and you have your own blog, then do link from your blog post back to this post please.
If you don’t have a blog, or don’t wish to do this on your blog, you are welcome to do it in a comment below.

Here are your 11 questions:

  1. How do you keep yourself positive, against the negatives in life?
  2. Your favourite hobbies?
  3. Your favourite place?
  4. Are you a city, by-the-sea, or country person?
  5. Introvert or extrovert?
  6. What is the best advice you have received?
  7. Your favourite song?
  8. A happy memory, that makes you smile?
  9. Coffee, or tea?
  10. Summer, or winter?