As much as I enjoyed the experience and I knew what was right for me; driving an automatic car, I don’t plan to drive a car again.
I have said that it was because of money; knowing I could not afford to run a car and this is true. But it’s not the full reason. I was struggling to the idea of continuing to drive, since the death of my cousin, Sandra and her husband, Michael.
When I failed my second driving test, because I got too close to parked cars, too many times, this examiner also gave me some other feedback about my driving behaviour. Although it hurt and I had not had any conversation of this kind from my driving instructor because he said the total opposite of this, which is obvious that sat navs played a huge part in the way I drove that day. I was originally still determined to have a third test regardless. When I told a family member about this driving instructor, he said it sounds like you had someone like I had years ago. This was described in a way, without adding any swearing to it and said not to let that stop me. I said it didn’t, I just don’t want to get behind the wheel no more since losing my family members. I also refuse to drive while sat navs are part of the test, because I personally would not use one. I don’t want distraction off the road.
But, although not being able to afford to run a car, no matter how I many times I rechecked my budget, even if I could afford it, I rather that money go to a holiday, than running a car. With losing my cousin and her husband to a careless driver, even if I could afford to run a car, I just don’t want to be behind the wheel more so, since losing them. He understood, but I was surprised I had this conversation, as I thought I had made it clear enough I wasn’t driving again. But nevertheless, as I have said before, the driving lessons and the whole experience of it, has not been a waste.
So this is the full reason, why I have no intention of driving again.