A reflection on the year

What a year I have had in 2018. It’s been a rollercoaster of a year as many of you will know. I have struggled with grief of losing my cousin and her husband. The emotional grief was ongoing, due to the court case for the person who played a part in their deaths being this year. Then writing to the local councilor, where they lived, to fight for changes on that road, which has resulted in a lower speed, clear signage and improved road.
Although the grief is still there, the year has been positive too. I started my new job on 2nd January and I have loved every second being there. Working there has made me feel like my old self, but a better self, because I have grown further in confidence this year. I am also happier because of my new job and also because of now living in Mansfield. This was icing on the cake, when I moved, because I did not think at one point this would happen, as it got nearer to the end of the year.

My next aim is to build up my hours, by looking out for morning work. I plan to send CV’s out to businesses near me, as well as looking at job vacancies that crop up in my email inbox, from job alerts I have set.
Until that morning job happens, I continue my volunteering one day a week at Ashfield Play Forum. This volunteering role, I have been doing for some years now. But when I do get a morning work, it will mean I need to leave, which they understand. As one staff member had said, before I got my new home in Mansfield, it will be a new chapter. My new chapter has come early I feel, for living in Mansfield alone. So watch this space and continue to visit my blog for new posts/stories, in the year ahead.

I would like to end this post on saying Happy New Year, whether it’s soon to arrive, or already happened, depending on where you live. Have a safe holiday and I will see you in the New Year.

38 thoughts on “A reflection on the year

  1. A beautifully,optimistic post Liz. I did not know about your cousin and the terrible accident. I am so sorry. But so glad for you that you have lateady started a new chapter in your lufe. I truly do wish you well in finding a morning job. I will keep following your Blig. A very very Happy New Year to you x

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      1. They always had a smile on their faces, regardless if underneath there may have been sad times. That’s what I will remember them for.
        It’s hit me hard because one time, when I was teenager, there was a time when mum wasn’t well and dad being older and his health not great, my cousin agreed to take care of me, should it come to it. So if circumstances had changed in my childhood, I could have ended living with them for a short while.

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      2. Thank you. Yes, they were very lovely. I known them for most of my life. It’s left a big gap. I know other family members will feel the same. Part of me still can’t believe they have gone.

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      3. I have a photo on display, of them smiling how I remember them smiling. I have them in my mind them smiling.
        Last year, I did a doodle as part of me coming to terms with them. This was all the happy memories I had of them, which I took a photo of if I remember right and shared in a blog post. This was some months ago. I had this clipped on my peg lights to look at.
        The Christmas tree also went up in November, instead of December, as another way of remembering them.
        I have a few plants in the flat already in general, but I have to be careful about having anymore, because of allergies.
        I will light a candle at different times as part of their memory. ๐Ÿ™‚

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      4. Thank you. They are certainly alive in love and memory with me. Also in my mum’s mind too, as it hit her hard, when she learnt they were no longer with us.

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  2. Well it sounds like it has a been a tough for you; I am so sorry for your loss; I hope you find a way through the grief. But I am happy that you have a new job and that has brought you happiness. I hope 2019 is a better year for you and you can more successes. Happy new year to you, my friend

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    1. Thank you.

      It has been tough, but regardless a positive year. The grief is still there and hits me at odd times. I put this down to my grief being overtaken by finding out what an ex was truly like. He abused a child and I already knew him when this would have happened. I also went out with him at near the end of that year and was in a 6 year relationship. I found out by accident, just 3 days after the funeral. It has triggered lots of things for me. It shocked me to the core and made me feel so sick.
      It’s been a few years from when I last seen him and so when this all came out, I had nothing to do with him.
      I have gone from where originally I was disappointed by him because he could not commit, to now this coming out, feeling disgusted at him and angry if I ever bump into him again.

      My new job has been great positive and I hope you find a job that gives you the same, like the temporary one you talked about on your blog.

      Thank you for following my blog and for commenting. Also writing your blog. It’s great to know you via our blogs.

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  3. You’ve had a lot to deal with this year, Liz, but hopefully things are turning a corner with more to look forward to now you’re settling in a new place and job and with positive things to aim for. I wish you the very, very best for a happier, brighter New Year – I hope 2019 is a good one for you lovely xx

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