It’s been over three months since signing tenancy for place where I now live and it will be three months later on in the month when I will have lived here. But this view that I love and still love, is tainted.
It did not help that this view was starting to get tainted by one energy utility company and then on to another. But that’s not the reason that this view has become tainted.
It’s tainted because of an incident that happened and that I witnessed through the spyhole on my door, early January.
I can’t go into further details on this here, but I am not happy with the neighbour opposite, because they were the ones that put me in fear to start with, making me think it was my door. But it wasn’t, it was them, with their door. (I assume they locked themselves out.) But the other neighbour from upstairs who looks out for me, I am not happy with him either, with how he handled the situation. He alone could have been arrested for what he was doing and holding in his hands! If I wasn’t already terrified enough, my heart was racing more and I did not get much sleep after this, resulting in me not feeling well through lack of sleep, as well as a nervous wreck, the next day.
I am hoping the neighbour above knows what I seen and how the whole incident has effected me. If he knows, it’s because the neighbour below will have told him. I told him to tell him and to tell those neighbours opposite too.
I am guessing he has passed this message on, to the neighbour above, because I have not seen him as I would normally in passing.
With this and what I have noticed with my flat in general some weeks after moving in, as well as other issues where there are tenants that do not treat the place with respect and think if others, I do partly regret moving in. But I only say partly, because moving to Mansfield had to happen and if I wasn’t in Mansfield now, I don’t know how I’d be mentally. That benefit alone outweighs how I feel in general about the flat. But to move again, after my contract ends, I cannot afford to do that. Not while I am in the situation money-wise, as I am. I need another job and save for a few years if I am to contemplate another move, before being in a council property. As those of you that have been following my blog for some time now, you will know that the only next move I had in mind originally, was a council property if renting, otherwise if I was lucky to afford to buy, then that would have been my move.
I may have slept well since that incident and feel safe, except for the time with stress caused by Economy Energy, then followed by Spark Energy, but the incident has left me feeling jumpy in my home. I have noticed I do jump to noises, I would not have jumped at before.
At the time nearer to when it happened, because I was in a state, my mum knew something had gone off. I couldn’t tell her though, because I know she would not relax if she knew. I could only reassure her that it wasn’t her and it wasn’t me.