Life currently now

I feel what I want in life, as a start to make things better has just slipped away, hence I can only focus on the day in hand. Looking ahead does not feel bearable to look at. I can only cope with today. It’s painful to look any further ahead than that.

For at least 4 years, I will live where I currently live. I am not happy about this and it doesn’t bear thinking. But for at least 4 years, staying where I am, will be easier than moving during this time, due to certain circumstances. Hopefully after then, maybe my dream of owning my own home can be a achieved, when time comes ready to move. But again, putting my heart and effort into this as I once did before, is not bearable. I save. Yes. That’s it. But for what I save for and looking how far away I am from my target, I don’t do now. I find it unbearable. I will just save.

Although I am on the council waiting list still, due to Coronavirus, means that is at a standstill. But I have been asking myself, do I want to move even into a council flat right now, that looks the same as the one I am in now? And, do I want to move from where I currently know what goes off, both good and bad, to possibly somewhere that could be worse? (I am thinking what my neighbour I am pals with has had to contend with over the years here, as the only council property in this block. They have it worse than me.)
I am thinking that right now, unless I was ideal for a bungalow, which I am not, then I don’t think I want to move right now on that basis with them.
The only thing that would possibly change it, if a particular flat comes up, which is rare when it does and popular, that then, I would apply and look, if I was lucky.

I have this not so reassuring thing going on in my evening job, as I mentioned in my Chit-chat August post. So unless our boss can reassuringly say to me, that something will be worked out to keep me on my current hours to clean, or to clean afternoons, I won’t be waiting otherwise to find out.

Then I have my new responsibility to come and that’s being deputy, when it happens.

Blogging I can always see me doing currently. But blogging will eventually end here at WordPress and off back to Blogger I will go. So my future updates from the New Year will be there.

My new blog is already visible as you know.

So to find out what goes on in my life and anything else I blog about, you will need to follow there.

I will only be on WordPress when reading and commenting on blogs I follow.

So day by day is all I can do. Today only. Not tomorrow, or later.

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17 thoughts on “Life currently now

  1. That’s a difficult decision regarding housing.

    I thought I had followed your Blogger blog already, but I guess I had missed a step in the process.

    1. If following new blog by email, after signing up, there is another you receive to confirm the follow up. But if you have done this then you should be set up.
      I did have a look on the list and you seem to be set up.

      1. Yes, I just did this a few minutes ago. I think I missed clicking on the email link when I tried signing up a couple of weeks ago.

      2. Oh right. Things should work ok then. Thank you for following.
        I won’t bombard with posts there, until over there completely in New Year, but one or two posts per month, just to make it look active, until then.

    2. Regarding the housing side yes, a difficult one. I think for now, I am just best to stick it out. I may not need the 4 year to do it. Just see what happens is all I can do.

  2. These are unfortunate times Liz we all seem to be held in some kind of vice. Progress is slow. Would you be interested in doing a course. I did a course which was paid by the government I received money in a form of benefits. If you are interested in learning a new skill or to apply the many skills you already have into eventually having a more rewarding job. It was a long time ago when I did this and hopefully they may still offer this kind of training.

    As far as housing goes for the time being as you say unless you find a better area, better the devil you know than the one you do not. Take care Bless you.

    1. Thank you for your comment. After doing a few courses in the past, I have had enough. I will just make sure I keep going out for my walks now, now I have got going, as more important to me right now.
      I did though look at courses last month for something personal for me, but didn’t see anything that I was interested in.

      1. Yes. I have ordered some new walking shoes, as I will need them if the ground is ever wet on the ones I have done so far. I would slip with my trainers.

  3. I just came upon your post liz, and I am so sorry to hear that things are not going as planned. That is the case for so many people this year, especially with the pandemic. May God be with us, Amen. I understand that you are worried about finances and financial security at this time and it is completely understandable. However, do not lose faith, your dream house may still be possible. The Bible says in Matthew 19:26 ” But Jesus looked at them and said to them, “With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” There is nothing that God cannot do. As a matter of fact, he sometimes likes situations like this, because they are a great way to show his power. I would advise that you pray to God about it, I know that he can help.

    Stay strong,
    May God’s blessings be with you, Amen 🙂

    (Blog post edited by author of this blog, as a link was added, which goes against rules on this blog.)

    1. Thank you for stopping by and commenting, but due to my past, the one thing I don’t want or need is religion pushed onto me. It’s something I cannot tolerate.

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