What are you really afraid of?

If you’ve never picked up a magazine called, “Psychologies,” then I recommend this magazine. I’m not a regular reader, but I have bought it a few times last year and found the article’s inside interesting and useful.


The idea for this post came from the above pictured, dated February 2019 issue, that I bought in December.
On page 70, there was a test of 10 questions to find what may be keeping you stuck in your comfort zone. The title of that page, “What are you really afraid of?”
You circle the answers that mostly apply to you, as you work through the questions. You then add up the symbols you circled and read the section, or sections that apply to you the most, to find out what’s stopping you from chasing your goals.
For me, the most marked were circles, which when I read overleaf the relevent section, it was fear from “social exposure.”
To read more of what it says for that about me, you would need to read the magazine, because of copyright laws and not being able to write it here. From reading what applied to me, it was certainly relatable.

I would see if you can get hold of the magazine yourself, if you want to read more up on this, or try it yourself. If not this one, but want to read the magazine, the next issue is out on 22nd January, which is March issue. (They go in advance, don’t they?)

Disclaimer: I have not been asked by the magazine to write this article. I have written this myself, because I found it interesting, as I do their magazine.

Due to the future of where this blog is going, I am unable to write any paid reviews. I have never written any paid reviews and I don’t plan to, so please do not ask me to review anything. Thank you.

So it’s the weekend

I really struggled getting up this morning, after lack of sleep last night. I had to drag myself out of bed. As well as tired and drained with so much focus going onto Spark Energy and getting them to sort out my messy account for gas and electric, I was so fed up, I could have easily stayed in bed all day. I have not felt like that for a long time.

So after getting up and counting my change to see if I could stretch to a drink out, I made myself go out.
The plan today was to go to Mansfield Museum. It’s free to go in and it’s not something I have hardly gone in before. Now I am living in Mansfield, I will make a habit of visiting every month, or two.
So I looked at all their displays, except for the children’s part. There were art work showing old Mansfield times. I looked at displays showing history of local mining and factories. There were small models of how some places may have looked one time and a room full of  photos taken by people.

From setting out of the house and coming back home for a late lunch, I was out for a couple of hours. I never had a cuppa out, so money saved. It was a struggle walking out today, as I felt tired and muscles slightly hurting. But at least my anxiety was better than it’s been for rest of this week.

Once home, I stayed in and played a couple of word games on my phone. Now I am listening to music.

I limited my time to half an hour Twitter. I have been letting my feeling known about Spark Energy there, as well as tweeting Ombudsman about them. I looked into if I was able to contact Ombudsman by post, if it ends up I take it that far. I am placing a personal bet with myself that I will end up doing this, because their emails remain short, standard and copied and pasted text in parts to me. It doesn’t feel that they are actually writing to me and they are not fully answering my emails. They think job done and over. But the job is not even half done and it certainly is not over when my account does not reflect the short time I have been with them, containing readings, that I have not given.
I have only checked my emails once this afternoon and have no intention of looking for rest of the night. It’s my time.

Tomorrow, I am avoiding Twitter full stop and I won’t be checking my emails. Mind you, the checking emails will be hard, as my focus tomorrow is to apply to a cleaning job I seen today and the other being a random email to a business near me, seeing if they are needing any cleaners and, telling them about me and attaching a CV. After that, then yeah, not going in my email account.

What’s your weekend like?


Liebster Award


December time, I was nominated for the Liebster Award, by Mel, from decorcraftdesign. Thank you Mel.

I thought I had this award already, but was still happy to accept, but I could see no award on this blog when searching for it, so I must have got confused with my old blog I used to write.

So reading up on Mel’s blog to see what it was about, which you will see if you click on the above link the Liebster Award is given to bloggers, by other bloggers. For a blogger to nominate you it introduces you to the world and if you nominate new bloggers, it does the same for them, expanding the blogging community. More in the above link if you like to read more about it and do check out Mel’s lovely blog, while you are there.

All I now have to do, is to answer the questions ( 5 – 11 of them)  put to me. Then make a similar set of new creative questions for the bloggers I nominate.

So these are the questions I chose to answer. Which was all of them, except for one, which I did not have an answer for.

What would you be like or do if,

  1. You are an opposite sex of yours? I wouldn’t want to be the opposite sex.
  2. You are a superhero? Superman. I know, it dictates my first answer.
  3. You are a dog? I’d be faithful and keep my owner happy.
  4. You are an artist? I’m answering as artist as in painting on canvas, or drawing etc… I would sell some pieces if they were good enough.
  5. You can fly? I don’t want to fly.
  6. You are a scientist? No thanks. I will leave it those that’s clever enough.
  7. You are a tycoon? If I want wan much money to live on, I’d certainly donate to a few charities.
  8. You are a celebrity? Choose not to be in the limelight, while still being able to do my job. I admire those celebrities that can do that, because it must be hard to keep your life personal.
  9. You are an alien? Can’t answer this one. Don’t know.
  10. You can travel time? I would want to see my own future, to choose whether it was worth fighting for, or not.
  11. You are a Santa Claus? Make all children happy and see they are safe and the adults who are homeless on the streets, would have food and shelter.

I am not nominating anyone, so if you are reading this and would like to do it, then you are welcome to.

Here are the questions for you if you choose to accept:

  1. Is there anything you plan to do, that will be a little out of your comfort zone?
  2. If you could travel in time, would you want to visit a past, or future?
  3. Do you own a pet? Tell me about your lovely friend. (Don’t have one? I don’t, but if you could own a pet, what would it be?)
  4. Your favourite comfort food?
  5. Your favourite place?

Do enjoy joining in and don’t forget to spread the community by sharing the award. Do see the above link in how to join in, as full details there.

Please note, that this will be the last award I will accept, as I don’t plan to do anymore. Thank you to those that have nominated me in the past. 


So update regarding issues with Spark Energy

If you have been following comments in this post, I am so glad they are down and out you will know an additional email was sent later in the evening on the 10th January, to inform them that while they are looking into the electric, they also need to be looking into the gas account as well. This was because I noticed a reading on my gas account for November, yet I did not join them with my gas until December. This reading is higher than I make my own reading as well. So another mistake I have noticed with my account, which still gives me no vote of confidence at all and possibly further unnecessary stress with this company.

The morning of the 10th January, I had to scan my tenancy agreement. So my morning was wasted doing that and learning how to send it all in one go, in an email. (A zip file, that I have never done before.)

I am hoping with the quietness of it all that they are seriously sorting this.

I have said to them that I expect compensation for this unnecessary stress, because I have said to them, come down and see the meter yourself and it will be sorted that very second, but you have not arranged anything. I provide what you want, but so far not correcting anything. Now I provide my tenancy agreement, but I have no faith.

I heard from Ofgem. It’s the Ombudsman that I will need to contact, when it comes to complaining. Spark Energy have until next month, when their 8 weeks is up and if it’s not sorted by then, it’s a complaint to Ombudsman. If I hear before from Spark Energy, but not sorted and they don’t plan to, I can write before.

This, as you know has affected my health, as I said in this post, Mental health can so easily slip.

I pay my way. It’s how I was brought up, to pay bills first. I find it very upsetting that I am treated like this. Especially when I have provided the proof.

I have had enough the past couple of years and this is supposed to be a fresh start. But with this discovery and issues now with Spark Energy, they have put an unnecessary cloud over my home. (Not forgetting the crap with other supplier, that took my landlord to sort.)

I will keep you updated on this, as I know more myself.

Mental health can so easily slip

With different stresses in life, anyone can easily take a knocking. But if you already struggle with your mental health, it can easily take a set back. I have considered being on a better path than I have ever been in the past, but I take this down to being more aware with myself. Despite knock backs, I consider myself ok, but I find I can still slip unexpectedly. My latest slip of stress really getting to me, due to Spark Energy is because I have not been on the ball in being aware of my mental health, because I have been so wrapped up with the issue that I consider a serious complaint. Supplying them with everything that they have asked, but not happy with what they receive. This morning, I have had to scan my tenancy agreement and send that to them in an email. I had to learn how to attach such a large file to an email. My headache got worse as I scanned the pages. My time being wasted yet again I am thinking and also thinking, any more issues? Will they accept the agreement? Because after all, they not happy so far. All would be so simple if they just came out to read meters but they do have the photographic evidence, including photographic evidence of initial reading.

A reminder was left for me by Katie, in the comments of this post; I am so glad they are down and out. Thank you, Katie.

I also seen this post on Katie’s blog; “Mental strength.” This post I could relate with how I am again and it also serves as a reminder for me.

I have noticed, but not fully acknowledge the small things, like pots mounting up and left till next day. Something I would not normally do, as I like a clean sink for mornings. But this is what has been happening this week.

The air has been blue in my flat, as in I mean swearing kind of blue. Swearing in general, when talking about my frustration with Spark Energy, swearing at myself.

I am hoping today, as I acknowledge this and be more aware again that this now calms down. It’s my mental health and my responsibility to get myself back and not let the idiots at Spark Energy who only care about their pay packet and not sorting customers needs quickly and appropriately.

I have changed my primary domain as planned

As I announced in IMPORTANT INFORMATION for my followers of this blog! and reminded in a post this year, that I would be moving my blog address back to the free WordPress address. So instead of seeing https://mywellbeingandlearningjourney.com you will be seeing how it was originally when I first started; https://mywellbeingandlearningjourney.wordpress.com/ from today.

As I warned in post; IMPORTANT INFORMATION for my followers of this blog! this may affect readers that have come to follow my blog while I was on the paid domain.
Now although I have changed my domain back early, the paid domain does not expire until later in the year. (Details in that above post.) So if you want to carry on following me and later in the year you find you cannot see me, just remember to find me back at my free blog address: https://mywellbeingandlearningjourney.wordpress.com/

Thank you.

I am so glad they are down and out.

Remember when I blogged about my move to where I live currently and how for two weeks, the supplier I was contacting during that time, (once I knew it was them,) left me two weeks without heating? In the end, you will remember that it took my landlord to sort that out for me.
Well, I shall name and shame them. It was Economy Energy that failed me due to no customer service what so ever. Last week, they were under Ofgem, but I learnt yesterday, they ceased trading. I am so happy to hear this, because now don’t ever have to worry about coming across them again, should and when I one day move again.
But unfortunately, when it comes to the utility provider I moved to, which is Spark Energy, before all the above happened with other above provider, I am now having issues with them too.
I am not having problems with the gas meter that I moved across from Economy Energy, which I moved over to them because first impressions seamt ok. It’s now the electric. The electric meter I have been with them since day one I have been in this flat. They have regular monthly meter readings. But I am noticing that they have only ever used one reading and the rest have been estimates. I have heard different excuses to the same complaint, by different staff. I am not happy. I don’t trust these now and I have lost faith. I even provided photos of my meter capturing both my readings rate 1 and rate 2, making sure that reference number on meter was visible too, so they know I am taking my meter and no one else’s and they said it wasn’t clear. So a follow-up email continued where I said what part is not clear for you? Did you zoom in the photo if required, stating how I have shown these to someone else and they can see them and not seen my meter. I told them if they don’t accept those photos, then they can send someone out to read it. I also said I would be contacting Ofgem. I then received a reply from someone different, who said thank you to those readings and my updated bill is now attached. But looking at bill, they still did not use my readings. So another email followed and now I have a new different answer.

I have stated very clearly to Spark Energy that I am not happy, I don’t trust them and I have no faith in them. I want this dealt with by a supervisor and only by that one person to completely deal with this issue, because I am sick and tired of hearing different excuses to my same problem. Which they still not using that latest reading.
I have also raised something else about my account that I am now questioning. Why are there readings before 1st October 2018, when my tenancy did not start until 1st October 2018? I also stated that I did not move in until 22nd October 2018. Again, what they know already, when I first contacted them, letting them know I am the new tenant.

I have emailed Ofgem about everything that has been said between me and Spark Energy, along with how happy I am to hear Economy Energy are no longer around, telling them of my experience with them.
I also added in the email to Ofgem that whose idea was it that we have to put up with the utility provider first already there at the property I move into, until transfer has taken place of my preferred supplier? It should go back to how it was before, where you could take your supplier straight across with you, then I would not have to the crap experience I am having, that is unnecessarily stressful.

Here is the new report from Independent: https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.independent.co.uk/news/business/news/economy-energy-bankrupt-bust-administration-customers-limbo-gas-electricity-supplier-ofgem-a8717776.html%3famp