My white pom pom rabbit, now has its pink bow.
I still have not got round with my other bunny. (A lop eared bunny.) Poms poms are made, but it’s motivating myself to shape them by trimming, glueing together, etc.. I seem to have settled with dvd’s.
And that is where this weekend lies. I just plan on watching dvd’s this weekend, with a little bit of housework in between today. That’s my weekend. Dvd’s mainly, with ocassionally looking out my window and see what bird activity there is. I have been observing two pigeons in particular these past two weeks, getting rather matey. If you know what I mean. 😁
I plan to purposely go to the supermarket again just to get a couple if things after the incident I blogged about here, in How are deaf people managing communication-wise during the time of Coronavirus? This is my way of saying to my anxiety, you ain’t going to make me worse after that. I felt I couldn’t leave it until my next shop and so when I went to the shop today, it was to treat myself.
And speaking of dvd’s. My neighbour bought some more up, as well as some cd’s. I am still yet to watch my other pile from them. Lol I am busy in this department still. 😁
I hear the weather will be nice this weekend, so I think an hour or two is called for sitting in the garden, rather than my flat, having a break from dvd’s and feeling the air.
As you know, since Tuesday, I am back cleaning in my evening job. But rather than evening, I am in a much earlier time, as my shift starts in the afternoon. This continues like this, while we are as a country, affected by this virus, following our Government guidelines.
Going to work, or when I get my groceries twice a week is the only time I go out to walk. I am in my flat otherwise.
It is just me working in the afternoon, cleaning. Another cleaner is in at the morning. Some things we both cover on our shifts, while other areas are given for each of us to do. Only certain areas are covered with only certain amount of staff in, who are restricted to where they can go in the building. It’s strange not seeing my other colleagues who I would normally see in my shift and its weird coming in at this earlier time. But while the country is where it is currently, I am glad I am in at this time, as I think my anxiety would go further through the roof, walking home in the evenings.
There is a possibility of even more extra hours at my workplace. But I have declined those. I am happy to do the extra few I am doing now, but I feel if I do any more than that, than I feel I am putting myself even more at risk. So I have found my limit and my comort zone. Anything more, I won’t do.
I looked for rainbows on my first day walking to work and I have been looking each day after for anymore. I seen 12. One being my neighbour displaying theirs, after I printed one off for them.
My anxiety is the main issue since I have commented in earlier posts about that, since being on lockdown. The thing is, I seem to be good not showing it regardless how I feel. It’s not something I deliberately do, so I put this down to one thing, being a survivor and how it has been said to me by a counsellor in the past, because this is all I have known from childhood with the different things I have had. I just get through it somehow. But please don’t ask how. I don’t know the answer. It’s just something I have done from a kid.
Do you seem to be good at hiding anxiety?
As I have said in an earlier post and I think in my comments, my anxiety starts before I go out to walk and I have had it through my shift too. Then it’s still there till I get home. My throat tight by that point I notice when home. But thankfully it starts to ease before I eat, otherwise I am know to not be able to swallow my food, meaning I can’t enjoy what I eat.
I am hoping my anxiety disappears in the end when going out, but being in a different world, I start to wonder. But my anxiety has decreased a little at work from second day back, if no where else.
What’s your weekend?
Also, do you get paranoid at the thought if you get a sniffle, or more, you wonder what the other’s will be thinking around you? Even though you know it’s not the virus.
Like for example, while writing this, I not had long something to eat and the sniffles came. I am at home, so need to worry about anyone else, with it just me. But if I had been having a hot meal out? Sniffles only lasted 5 minutes or under, after I finished eating a hot meal. But just using as an example.
The other example was my first day back at work. I got the sniffles about half way walking to work, because the air is cool and I am wearing a scarf to take that coolness off. I felt really sniffly, when I arrived. But it gone in about 10 minutes, or under, with being I was in the warmth.
Hayfever season soon for me, so itchy nose with sneeezing possibly at times and you may remember what unexpected issues I had last year, how it triggered my asthma. So I will be paranoid about coughing, if I get it like last year. Although, with being dairy-free, I should find I do not have phlegm issues like last year, which I noticed improvements last year when I had a cold.
I just started my tablets for my hayfever ready a few days ago, in preparation so it is in my system before I start showing the signs in May. But last year, it caught me out with it starting much earlier. I have had tiny symptoms showing odd times in past month, but not to affect me.
‘Coffee promiser’ texted me two days ago, to see if I was ok, with all this Coronavirus going on. I answered back, but just because I have doesn’t mean I am going to keep the ball rolling and keep texting myself out the blue. She can do the chasing. (For those who are new and not aware while I call this so called family member coffee promiser, you will have to just look for that answer in last years posts. They are there somewhere, the answer to that. I am not going back on this story again here.)
A rather different weekend style of post to what I usually write. So if you have read all through, then thank you for reading.
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