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So my earlier post of today felt like a rant, that I needed to get off my chest. Something I did hold back from doing. The letter to my local MP felt like a rant/negativity of my life which can so easily knock your moods down. The past month I long for some kind of fur baby to cuddle. But I can’t afford it. So my mind has to be distracted else where and this post and what I talk about in this post, is my distraction. 🙂

I have been making sure I make time to colour. This is especially important for me to do, since beginning of this year, making sure I am not too distracted by other things that I forget to take this time out.

I have also played about with watercolours today, which I have not done this, since my teens.

I also set myself a challenge with my watercolours today, by seeing what I could with a photo of a tulip using watercolour. This inspirational challenge came from Ally, over at Ally’s Notebook, in her post, “My art challenge in progress.” Ally is done hers using pastels. The photo of the tulip had such lovely colours.

This was my first attempt using the watercolours I own. I am happy with my first attempt, but I shall revisit and  do this one again later, when I have a brighter pink watercolour. (The colour is probably looking brighter on your computer screen, than how I see it physically on my paper, as it seems to me also brighter on-screen.) I shall do a different background, when I make another attempt of this. I knew the background would be an issue for me, but I have still enjoyed giving it a go.

I look forward to trying new things with my watercolours.

Turning challenging moments into positives

Think about what is most challenging in your life right now and name as many positive aspects of it that you can.

This above prompt came out of my gratitude journal, that I mentioned about in this post, Gratitude. I have been struggling with this page the last three weeks. Knowing how I have been feeling because of all the things that have been going on, I looked and thought during those three weeks, how the hell can I think of something so positive out of my most challenging in my life right now?

After three weeks of just staring at this prompt, I was able to write something today. I wanted to share this with you, due the support you have all gave me during my difficult time I am going through.

My challenging time is anxiety, not helped by Spark Energy, the administrators of Spark Energy and the council from the district I left. But also, after witnessing what happened outside my door in January, which left me terrified and now my anxiety even higher, on top of feeling jumpy at every noise and at times broken, that I have to cry with it all.

The positives are, that regardless how I feel and the above that’s happened, I still somehow seem to be fighting. I’m also determined of what will change and that’s me moving to another flat, or house, depending what appeals at that time, when my contract comes up. I am hoping my savings will still be there by October, to allow me my move.

Spark Energy have not heard the last of me and after seeing someone at CAB today, the manager at Spark Energy will be getting a letter, as advised by CAB. The administrators will also be getting a very similar letter, when I have heard from them. These letters what I have to say are all from a particular email I found in my spam box. So what I have to say to both of them, reminding them on a law that they have breached, someone here needs to acknowledge who is at fault here. CAB told me to keep them on their toes and I will be doing.

Come late August to September, I will start packing stuff I don’t need, like books for example.

Come October, I will start looking where I am moving next and hopefully that part won’t take too long.

Blog post re-share: You Are Amazing

It’s so easy to overlook yourself and this post serves as a good reminder for us. 🙂

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I’m truly enjoying the November Soul Reset.

Day Three is talking about gratitude, but not just the proverbial list. It asked me to thank myself.

To say ‘thank you’ to me for being me.

Consider the last time you felt thankful for yourself. Really genuinely. Not because someone told you to. But because it just dawned on you. It just dawned on you that you are pretty amazing. ~SC Lourie

This is rather profound. When I think back of all the things I’ve been through, I tend to thank God, and that someone who stood by me during the storm. I cannot recall if I’ve ever said, “Thank you Barb.” 

I encourage you to take a quiet moment with you. Sit with a warm cuppa, and thank you for being there for you. When you think of who you love most in this world let it be you. You…

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Blog post re-share: Try to be a rainbow in someone’s cloud — Emerging From The Dark Night

I came across this post from, “Emerging from the dark night” and I loved the inspirational read. The name, Maya Angelou wasn’t familiar to me, so after reading this post below, I googled her name. As soon as I seen photos of this lady, her face seemed familiar. I would have seen her on the TV I think, in my childhood and I remember liking this lady.

After reading the words from the post below, I certainly would like to read more of her work.

I just came across this beautiful article on an idea from Maya Angelou. Well worth a look. https://iamfearlesssoul.com/try-to-be-a-rainbow-in-someones-cloud-maya-angelou/

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Words I like to live by

Words I like to live by are:

“Be yourself.”

Be yourself and you are genuine not only to others, but yourself too.
If you feel you need to fake it for other people’s benefits, then you are in the wrong crowd.
By being yourself, you are being true to you and others. You are not restricting yourself. The genuine people will love you in their life, no matter what.

By being yourself, you are being authentic.

Hope

I was inspired to write this post, after seeing Therapy Bits post here. So do check out and read her post too.

Hope

Hope, is what has kept me going over the years, when trying to get out of a horrible work place, that was once nice to work for.

For years applying for endless jobs, mostly cleaning jobs and with only hearing back from a very small few, without hope, I would not have been able to continue.
The last two to three years were very hard.
Getting up most days was hard.
Being at work that crushed every part of me, was hard.
I wondered when and if I would ever get my break.

I finally got that break and before last Christmas my notice went in and I left the job that destroyed my soul.
I started the new job beginning of this year. My soul is now replenished and I am now back to my old-self, or should I say, a new better self, because of my confidence growing and being very happy in my job. A job that I feel respects me and appreciates me. Most of all, to be spoken to, as I would expect to be treated. Not to be spoken down to and treated like crap, as my old place treated me in the last few years.
Being in this lovely environment, where I feel part of a team has helped me to grow.

There may be readers here who feel trapped in their job and not hearing anything back from their job applications. I hope this post gives you hope, that things will turn round for you.

My other hope is to live in Mansfield, closer to my workplace, but this will also be a fresh start for me.
I am on the council list and I know there will be a long wait, unless I am extremely lucky with one of my bids, due to a low number of people wanting the property, but until then, I look privately also.
Even if I get a private one first, I will hope that one day I am in a council property.
If a private property comes first, I hope that it’s one that can offer long-term. As I mentioned in a recent post about viewing a flat, this is one that does offer long-term.

What ever you hope for, don’t give up.

Blog post re-share: The Perks of Being Alone – a Short Essay about Self-empowerment

A blog post re-share, about those that choose to be alone. The benefits of being alone and how we improve our self-esteem. It’s a personal journey for those that choose to live alone and coming across this post in my reader, because I follow this blog. I found this blog post a great, inspirational read. It is nice to read someone else’s positive perspectives on living alone.

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Hello Everyone and Welcome to JGC Blog.

Today, I want to talk about the positive aspects of being alone and how those aspects can lead to self-empowerment.

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