Chit-chat – October

Learning

I received my certificate for Health Care (Foundation) with BSY, near the end of September, which I received ‘High Merit’ for. As for my other home study; pet sitting course, I took a break from studying to feel refreshed after the effort I put in with the two courses at BSY, now finished as you know, except for still sticking my head in books to help with my theory test and learning to drive. By the way, if you have not already seen this post; Theory test; attempt 2, I passed and my driving lessons are in November.

My hand

I have nothing to report about my hand much, as I am having a problem trying to get an appointment at the moment with the doctor, to see about results. I still have pain, but it has eased a bit, but it can still catch me out. I still use my pain-killing gel and take paracetamol. I have limited to how I use my hand, like making sure I don’t put any exertion on it, which I think has helped too in reducing pain.

My tooth

My tooth that has been a long wait for to have extracted, is on the 17th October.
When I have been taking paracetamol, it has not only helped my hand, it has also helped to reduce the pain on this too. It is very tender to touch around the right hand side of my face, near my nose. The pain or discomfort seems to transfer to my cheek bone at times too. I will be glad when it comes out. I have felt nausea at times this past fortnight and I am wondering if it’s the abscess that is making me feel like this.

PIP

PIP assessment is this week and I am hoping this time they don’t cancel, because if I arrive there to find it has like last time, I will write a written complaint. Not that I will forget the last time at this weeks assessment, as I shall raise it there at the appropriate moment.

The job front

I will be glued to my email inbox to see if I hear from either of the cleaning jobs I applied for. One of them does not have a closing date, but the other does, which was last Friday. If I am lucky to hear from them, 48 hours before interview day, then the interview will fall this Friday.

To stay where I am at the moment

As you know from my last chit-chat, I had extra worry when I heard my rent was going up, while making my way to my PIP assessment. The extra worry on top of losing PIP, made me feel sick. After chatting with the person who manages the property on behalf of the landlord, I felt happier and a little reassured. So it has taken a little pressure off. As tempting as I want to move from the area now, I did not want to do it while I have my cat Miley. So as I continue to live here for how ever long I have Miley, I don’t want to move until I am ready to downsize, because the type of property I would want, I would not be allowed a cat. But if it turns out I did not get anywhere with this job and I heard from the other one which is local, then moving out of the area would be rather a stupid idea, as I could walk to it and so if this happened, then I would downsize to a property in my local area, if possible, when the time came. Wherever my next move would be in the future, I will be picky.

Finding the balance

The urge to move out of my area, I don’t think helped with how I was through other stresses I had, that I have blogged about in past posts, that affected my moods and how I was feeling. Although I still have the urge to live in another area, it is not as strong as it was. I think if I am in a better job, everything would follow on ok and everything else would balance out. I have seen this, while I am lucky for it to be calm at my workplace and making sure I have my time out moments like I did on my D.I.Y. retreat.

I also learnt after my retreat, that I need to make sure I don’t drink too many lattes when out and about, (unless it is the decaf kind) because know that having more caffeinated drinks than I usually would when out, does not help my anxiety.
Looking back after my D.I.Y. retreat, I am aware before leading up to that, that I was drinking a lot of lattes more than normal which became my comforter drink. When I felt tired, down and stressed, I would make my way out for that smooth latte from my favourite place. I can remember that every sip I drank, I enjoyed, but I also remember how I felt comforted, which replaced sweet food. Either not good, when you have too much. I am surprised I did no give myself a migraine, (or bad headache) and nausea with how many I had a week. So now, when I go out, latte I still have, but depending on how many I have already that day, or that week, it may not always be my first choice.

I have taken timeout this weekend. Not a set schedule like the D.I.Y. retreat, but still doing something.
Saturday morning, after feeding Miley and having my breakfast, I read a book, then I went out to a coffee and cake morning that a local shop was having to raise money for Macmillan. I met my mum there and while there, I browsed the handmade gifts in the store. I bought something for myself and the other was towards a Christmas present, to go with something else I bought earlier on in the year. Me and my mum then walked back to mine and chatted back at mine for a couple of hours over further decaf tea and decaf coffee.
When my mum decided she was going to leave, to make her way back home, I decided to make my way to Nottingham for a bit. This was to do some Christmas shopping while I had the money, while soaking up the atmosphere. I was just down there for a couple of hours, before coming back home to have my dinner, then I relaxed with book.
Sunday, after my breakfast and feeding Miley, I continued reading my book while the washer was on. Basically just having a lazy day and nothing else planned.

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Theory test; attempt 2

Yesterday was my second attempt at the theory test, so as I knew what to expect from the moment I entered the building, I hoped this time I would have no nerves, (or little as possible) and be relaxed for my test.
The only time my nerves kicked in a little, were half way through my hazard perception, then excitement. I was battling to control both of these, especially my excitement. When it came to collecting my results, I did not look at them till I was outside. This was because one, I was nervous if I failed and two, should I have passed this time, I knew I would scream.
So when it came to opening my paper to look at my results, I found I passed and I screamed with excitement. Tears started to flow a little as I made my way to the bus station from there and, my grin and excitement continued all through my shift at work, later that evening. 😀

I emailed my instructor before my shift started, to let him know I had passed and when I checked on my emails later, when back home from work, I had an email from him informing me of the week I am having my lessons and times I need to be available between.
My lessons start from 20th November and ending on 24th November, (with test being 2.30pm.) So with these being intensive lessons, you will find me quiet on the blogging front, starting from the week before my lessons are due and when I have finished. Also, any emails I may receive, I won’t answer until I am back to normal with my blogging.

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Book review: “Molly and the Cat Cafe,” by Melissa Daley.

“Molly and the Cat Cafe,” is written by Melissa Daley.

Molly and the cat cafe
It is a fictional story about one homeless cat, who embarks on a journey to find a new home. Molly ends up at Stourton-on-the-Hill and is welcomed by a caring cafe owner, Debbie.
Debbie, like Molly is an outsider and is struggling with her cafe and a local is on the warpath to keep her out newcomers.
Debbie also has a daughter, so she is desperate to turn the struggling cafe around.

I thoroughly enjoyed this book, which I read in two days. I just could not put this down.
I also liked how it was written from the cat; Molly’s perspective.

A beautiful story, of Molly’s journey.

My D.I.Y. Retreat Reflection Post

Since I have written this post, ready for schedule, some things have now changed after recent events. Please read till the end of the post and the writing in blue is my update. 

So these are my reflections I had during and after my D.I.Y. Retreat.

  • To not be hasty in choices where I live, no matter how desperate I may feel at times. I have always said downstairs flat, so I must not choose a studio flat, just because it was the only option going in a preferred area to live.
  • I may have to learn I won’t get the area I want to live in and so I may need to decide on another area not as far away, which has plenty of choices. But will it be ok and far enough away for me, from where I currently live? (Carry on reading this post, for my answer to this question.)
    Also deciding on this area may be better job wise, if I was to get a job in this area.
  • I need to try to stick it out where I live, while I have Miley and not move unless I really have to. I don’t want to stress her out. (It took her a month to like and settle in where I currently live.)

So what can I do to try to make it bearable, where I live?

  • Maybe start travelling to the next town that has more choices to live. I know the area to a certain extent, but I’m just not a regular there, so I need to start going that way for things I need. I can then hopefully see whether I could imagine myself living in that area, or not.
    When I pop out for lunch, rather than doing it in my area, go that way instead.
  • Although I hope to not be moving yet, I shall window shop places available and go that way to look from the outside, to just to walk round that area. By doing this, I can imagine if I could live there and imagine what it would be like when walking home there, in the dark. When the time comes to choosing and looking for real, I will know what I like and what I don’t.
  • When I feel really overwhelmed, as I did recently before my retreat, I need to make sure I take time out to pamper me. If I can’t do it over a weekend like I did this time, then at least a day. I know this is easier said then done though, after that trigger. But hopefully I can do it and be aware.

I still want to leave the area for the same reasons of living somewhere new, but the added pressure that was getting to me was knowing my rent was going up, on top of going through PIP, with DLA stopping and going to PIP and so money worries, until I am sorted job wise of some kind.
Now although my rent is going up and so there is a little added pressure still there because of the PIP worries, there is also a little pressure and concern taken off. After I seen the person who manages the properties on behalf of landlords, I did mention to him that I would have to start looking sooner than I like, if I find my rent goes up again next year. The bloke was great with me and said that if the landlord next year wanted to put the rent up again, he will warn the landlord that I will leave. He promised me it would not go up again after this time and he would not want to see me homeless. So I felt relaxed and reassured by this.
Ever since I have been in this current property, I have been really happy with who I rent with and he is happy with me. He knows I look after the property well and that I am a good tenant, so he is happy with that.

I also know when it comes to downsizing later, when Miley is no longer with me and a place where I can park a car, when the time comes, I know I can stay with this company and choose one of their available properties.

My D.I.Y. Retreat: 3 of 3

Last post of my D.I.Y. Retreat, but do catch my reflection post some time later.

Menu:

Breakfast
Toast with butter and jam
Banana
Tea or coffee

(Mixed nuts available to snack on, if required.)

Lunch 
Chicken, veg, yorkshire pudding and mash, with gravy.

Dinner
Selection of crackers and assorted cheeses, with baby tomatoes.
Greek yogurt with fruit

Schedule:

8am – 9am Breakfast
9am – 10am Free time
10am – 11am Zumba, then free time till lunch.
12.30 – 1.30 Lunch
1.30pm to 4pm approx, watch DVD, “Logan,” followed by free time.
4pm till dinner Reflections in journal and free time
6pm – 7pm Dinner
7pm – 9pm Listen to music
9pm or 10pm Bed

Luckily it was free time for an hour after breakfast, as I chose to lie in for an hour.
After breakfast, I played “Dance, Dance, Dance,” on my Zumba DVD and could see my co-ordination was getting better than the first time I played it. I felt good afterwards.
It was free time before lunch, which gave me time in the kitchen to prepare what I needed.

After lunch, it was DVD time. Today I was watching, “Logan.” I have been looking forward to this since I bought it some weeks ago, ready for when I chose to have my retreat time. While watching it, I ate some strawberries.

I took a soak and washed my hair before dinner. I enjoyed my selection of crackers and cheeses, with mugs of tea to wash it down. I then listened to music, till bed, which I had an early night to prepare for the day tomorrow.

Here are some of my photos, from my own retreat.

Finding inspiration

I hope you enjoyed reading my three posts on what I did on my own D.I.Y. retreat and that it has gave you some inspiration. As I had mentioned in an earlier post, I learnt that it is personal to you and there is no right or wrong way about it.

It was also interesting Googling around on different types of home retreats, after deciding that was where mine would be and I found this useful PDF guide called 7 Steps to Create a Mini-Retreat at Home, giving me further ideas to creating my own retreat at home.
Coming across this guide, I learnt who was behind this and I went to visit their website, “Raw Horizons.” My coaching session is only part I have not shared, as this is personal to me and it would make it an extremely long post.