A short chit chat

I received my certificate recently for my final paper for my ‘Health Care – Managing Challenging Behaviour’ course and I received a ‘High Merit.”

I am not doing any animal-related courses with NARPS now. This was because I spent half an hour just trying to register because of their website timing out.
There has been many occasions before, when visiting their website it times out, so I did wonder when I was planning to do my course there, what luck would I have.
When I did finally get to register, they did not accept my payment! Surprisingly, when writing out a complaint using their contact form and having the same issue of timing out, that actually got through. I said in response to their email that to just remove me off their list, as I am going elsewhere to do my courses now.
After searching around elsewhere and weighing them up, I have now registered with Stonebridge College. I await for my first course with them, as I have chosen to do via post, as this is my preference. (You can do it online if you want to.)
If I am happy with this course, then I already have another I plan to do after, once complete.

Outside, I got round to finally putting up on the artificial hedging on my fourth trellis planter. Do you remember the pansy that I nearly killed over and over in the early days?¬†It is doing very well now. This one single plant has nearly completely covered the pot, around my rose-bush, as this photo shows. ūüôā

You will also see my fourth trellis in the background of this photo, with the artificial hedging on. I will take a view from the distance of the whole garden another time.

pansy growing well in my rose bush container

How quick did you take to automatic car lessons?

I am trying not to think about Monday evening much, when I have my first automatic driving lesson, since quitting manual lessons. If I do, anxiety creeps in. I am trying to remind myself with positive thoughts of the following:

  • I have a new instructor
  • I am with a new driving school
  • It’s an automatic, not a manual
  • I will enjoy it
  • I will find it easier
  • There is no gears or clutch to worry about
  • So it will be bloody better

As I say, my anxiety creeps in and positive thoughts I am struggling with to try to ease my nerves. So lets hope on the day, I will be much better and back to the beaming smile of accomplishment.

A question for my readers who drive automatic.

How did you get on and did it take long to feel confident driving an automatic car?

Do share any other experiences you can give.

Thank you in advance. ūüôā

The effects from my last manual driving lesson

As you know from this post; I am having no more manual driving lessons, that I am having no more manual driving lessons. As you know, the last lesson I felt I had made two steps back, I had anxiety at a level that was not good and not helped by instructor in what he did on one occasion towards the end, that he did once before in another lesson; pulling me over when I did not hear him say pull over and instead thinking he wanted me to do  left turn.
But there was another effect I had from the lesson, that I did not mention in that post, until now.
I am still struggling with keeping my voice. I am assumed this was through anxiety, but I wasn’t sure. But after seeing how I was over the next few days and then looking it up, I see it is. I felt embarrassed by this, but I see from reading it up that I don’t need to be embarrassed. This is a new thing for me where stress has affected my voice and I am still struggling with it as this post goes to air.

I still feel a little down and I have a little anxiety still, especially as I know I will be having my first automatic driving lesson sooner than expected. But I am still determined to drive and if that means driving in an automatic, then so be it. I don’t care. I can see me getting on with it well, when anxiety settles, because of no clutch and gears to worry about. They were a distraction. I have tried my best with a manual, but it is not for me, so bring on automatic.

Thank you for your lovely support, when I announced I was quitting manual for automatic driving lessons and how it affected me, while trying to learn in a manual car. It is very much appreciated.

If you fancy winning, then don’t forget to enter.

Just a reminder for my readers regarding giveaway I am doing. If you fancy winning, then don’t forget to enter. To find out more about the giveaway and how to enter, then please visit this post;¬†Giveaway Time ‚Äď Two Mindfulness books up for grabs!

Good luck to those who enter.

I will draw the appropriate names in the evening on the day it closes and announce some time after, when I have first contacted the winners and they have claimed their prize.

Chit chat

My cat, Miley, had her teeth cleaned as mentioned in a previous chat. I picked her up in the evening, just in case if she was like before when it came to anesthetic; taking longer to come round. Miley was sleepy looking when I picked her up and she was like before; sleeping, but regardless how she felt, when we were home, she was obviously excited about being home and she was also ready for her food.
Miley shown her impatience for waiting for her food, by plodding around the room, while the fish was cooking in the oven. This was to be a small amount little and often that night and then she could have her usual food from the next day.
A couple of days later, Miley went back for her follow-up check-up, to make sure everything was ok and it was.

Miley, my cat, on the settee

As for me, I have had to bring my dental appointment check-up forward after finding a lump on my gum-line where I had my apicoectomy. (Learn about apicoectomy procedure here, which will take you to an external website.)
Everything had been going well since the apicoectomy and when I had my last treatment  at the dentist where he redone a filling to seal the other end of the root canal. I was just having follow-up appointment to keep check which the x-ray shown that the new bone was growing, but there was still more growth needed before the void was filled. I was also warned that there was still a risk that the infection could come back.
I have been that worried in the past of it coming back, that I have been back a few occasions in the past to be reassured everything was ok and my next appointment originally was September for a further follow-up check-up. It was only last month since all the first issues ever started a few years ago where I just started to relax about it, until recently one night, I just happened to look at my gum line and see a lump with like a head, as though it may ooze one day. This is the only difference this time, where before when I was concerned, I had nothing visually.
If it turns out that I have got another infection/abscess, then I will just get them to remove it. I don’t want any further root canal treatment and I don’t want another apicoectomy surgery.
Although I know I won’t be happy about asking to have it removed because this tooth being near the front of my mouth where it is on show when I talk, or smile, I am fed up with this cloud/worry that has always loomed over it. I will let you know what happens after my appointment, once it is confirmed.

Had a surprise on my lesson two of my ‘Health Care Foundation Course;’ I received a ‘High Merit.’ I was already prepared for receiving my next paper for lesson three, so as soon as it arrived, I worked on it and posted it. I just have two more lessons to go of this home study course and then it is completed.
Soon, I will sign up to the NARPS course I want to do. This course is done online compared to my other courses elsewhere. I am hoping there is a way I can print the courses off for my reference, as I like to keep things like this to look back on for future reminding. If I can’t, then it will be the old-fashioned way of pen and paper.

I have a book wish list for books I want to buy for knowledge and reference, for when I start my self-employment at some point. Some of these I have already ordered, using some of my savings. I have bought appropriate notebooks and other stationary ready and there is a filing cabinet to come soon. There is other necessary stuff to buy, or set up before I officially name and announce my business, but this will be when I have finished the course at NARPS, in case I pick anything new up from that to help. (Which I should.)

You will remember I talked about D.I.Y. Retreat at Home back in July. I have started preparing my D.I.Y. retreat, by creating this box of goodies just for that.

I won’t use all the goodies in one go, but this a selection to pick from on my pampering sessions/D.I.Y days I have.
The box was a plain box that I have decorated accordingly, which relates to what this box is about, so there are relaxing pictures as well as quotes. There are even some quotes on the inside of the box lid.

Next thing to do, it to decide what I will eat and do, or not do, to get the benefits. Once I know, it is booking my weekend in my diary to do it, so I stick to it. Then prior for that weekend, making sure I buy my food that I want.

I am having no more manual driving lessons

Yesterday was my 12th driving lesson which was a little bit mixed in how I responded to driving, as I seemed to have taken a few steps back, which something I felt, but also my instructor mentioned.
Being a new situation, I stalled a few times, which my instructor said was all normal. But the stalling was avoidable because I was in the wrong gear needed at that time. I thought I was having trouble with both the clutch and gears again, until the instructor said it was because I was in the wrong gear. So just when I think I have got the knack, I haven’t.

Now I can understand when the instructor needs to grab the steering wheel at certain times if I am putting us in danger some how. That I accept. But once again, the steering wheel was grabbed and I wondered at that point it was happening as in what I am doing wrong now. I heard him wrong again, as I thought I was going to be doing a left turn ahead. I did not hear him say pull over.
This situation does not help me when I am anxious, (which when I said I did not hear him say that and was preparing a left turn ahead, he did apologise for that.)
I nearly broke down in tears, which I bet he noticed because I could feel my chin quivering. I was already sore from the sharp brake before that he had to do, but when it happened for this situation, it stung even more and I am feeling it.
This has not been the first time in a lesson he has wanted me to pull over before and grab the steering wheel to do it, because I did not hear him, instead preparing to do my turn I thought I heard.
Although I was partly upbeat when I left, by night-time I cried big time, to an extent I have not done before.
This morning I am still feeling low and, tearful and I contacted him to tell him I would not be having more lessons, so to refund what I paid in advance accordingly. I will still though be interested in taking my theory test and so I will look out for the appropriate email for that.

I have contacted this morning via email, one of the driving schools I contacted before regarding automatic driving lessons. I wish I never took my name off this one some weeks ago, along with another. I am hoping they will put my name back down back on their driving school list.