My other two colouring books

So here are my other two colouring books I said I would mention, since this post, “Adult colouring books.”

“Enchanted Forest” and “Secret Garden,” are both by Johanna Basford.


The pages are so detailed inside and these two are going to last me for some time. They are worth the money. As well as colouring, there are things to find, or do. I’m doing the colouring first and will go back to the puzzles after, except for the pages that involve adding more detail them, which those I will do as I go along.

This photo below, is a couple of pages out of the “Enchanted Forest” colouring book.


The photo below, is a couple of pages out of the “Secret Garden” colouring book.


I have mostly used felt tips when colouring these pages, but at times I have used pencil crayons. Although the paper is good quality, I would not recommend Sharpies felt tips, as these will bleed through to next page. Felt tips I have been using that are really good and do not bleed through are Staedtler and Stabilo.



Adult colouring books

Adult colouring books have been out a few years and they are still popular. They can help towards better mental health, because they give you something to focus on. I have been using colouring books for a couple of years, or slightly longer and towards end of last year, I was relying on them heavily after tragic events, to get through the day. (The last picture certainly reflects that very dark period in my life.)
These pages out of my colouring books were single-sided, so I used mainly sharpie pens for colouring in, but at times I used pencil crayons too.
I said last year that I would share some of my colourings one day. Although later than planned, here they are.

In a later post, I will share two colouring books I am now currently using.

My bullet journal

I said in my first post, “First chit-chat of 2018” that I would share my bullet-journal sometime in February. So here it is. 🙂

Below, is my Mood Tracker for 2017. It is colour coded to show my moods. There have been days where I had been feeling different things, hence the different colours in the squares.

My colour coding I use and their possible meanings, when I use that colour that day:

  • Red is for – angry, frustrated, annoyed, anxious, or grumpy.
  • Orange is for – average, normal, or uneventful.
  • Brown is for – sick, tired, lazy, lethargic, unmotivated, or exhausted.
  • Green is for – productive, alive, active, energetic, or focused.
  • Blue is for – sad lonely, depressed, insecure, down, or numb.
  • Purple is for – unsure, or disassociated.
  • Yellow is for – joyful, happy, fulfilled, content, satisfied, or good.

Mood Tracker 2017

Here is my Mood Tracker for 2018. What a difference, since being in my new job. 🙂 I use the same colour coding, as before. I think this is great to use if you want to monitor your moods when suffering from depression, anxiety etc…

Mood Tracker 2018

Below, where I share another two pages from my bullet-journal, shows a quote, “There is nothing like a good book, to escape into” and my reading book list. The books where I have written the titles, I have either these books already, or that are on my wish list. My wish list is marked by a * with an arrow pointing downwards, on the book. This is the only book I plan to buy and read one day, which will stay on my bookshelf.
Where I have an x in the box on my book, means I have read it and where there is / means I’m currently reading.
Quote and my bookshelf

This page in photo below from my journal, shows self-care ideas I discovered.

Self Care ideas

Another two pages from my journal below, which apologies for picture of the dog not showing clearly. (This was from my flash, with paper being glossy.) I just cut the dog picture out of a magazine and glued in my journal. I used glitter tape to frame the picture of the dog.
The other page shows a quote, “Be patient with yourself. Nothing in nature blooms all year.”

Another couple pages of my journal

I put this compliment and reminder from a reader of my blog, inside my journal. Ren left this on my last blog post last year and I put this in my journal, as I felt I needed this reminder at the time to look at while away from blogging. “You got this, Liz! You are a good person and you know it. Do you tell yourself, out loud, of all your accomplishments? Of how proud you are of yourself? What a beautiful being you ARE? I great compliment goes a long way.”

Compliment from a reader of my blog

This journal two-page spread shows my goals, in a way I can see easy at a glance.

Goals page of my journal

I need to know how to draw a banner and so I copied the instructions into my journal for reference.

How to draw a banner

I used a banner to label my “DVD’s I’d like to watch” page of my journal. Symbols I used here, were a tick if I watched it. A * meant it was on my wish list. (Some I have bought already.) A x meant I didn’t watch it. This symbol was added after I realised that the DVD I could not watch, did not have subtitles.

DVD's I'd like to watch

I also wrote my “Personal achievements of 2017,” in my journal.

My Journal Case

My journal case I bought after discovering this via another blog many months ago. I can’t remember the blog now. But after she shared it and said how useful it was to her, showing photos, I knew this would be handy for me too. This wasn’t a UK product and so I had to wait a little to receive it. But I am so happy with it and it was a good buy. I have had this for many months now. It was available on Amazon com, but after finding it via there, I searched on UK one and found it. It did not really take long as I thought it would to arrive. It’s good quality and hold quite a lot.

Outside of my journal caseInside of my journal case 1Inside of my journal case 2Inside of my journal case 3

Post share from, “Every Day Is A Mental Health Day.”

This video is something I came across via Facebook, while taking a break from blogging that I can totally relate too. It’s from Facebook page called, “Every Day Is A Mental Health Day” and the video is about what it is like to have high-functioning anxiety. The link below will take you to this video on their page.

Post share: “My battle cry: Ignorance is not an excuse,” by A Kinder Way.

Ignorance is no excuse. It is time to learn to gain an understanding, if you don’t know about someone’s mental health. Ignorance can damage.
Learn more here, why ignorance is no excuse.

A Kinder Way


I have had OCD for 14 years. Throughout those 14 years, I’ve been supported, understood and believed by many people in my life.  I’ve been shown a great deal of love and patience. I’ve seen effort and kindness, compassion and an incredible amount of care. To those people…thank you….from the bottom of my heart. THANK YOU.

The thing is…I’ve also felt a lot of negative things about my diagnosis.

I’ve felt embarrassed and ashamed.

I’ve felt burdened and scared.

I’ve felt guilty and sad.

I’ve felt overwhelmed, confused, angry and frustrated.

I’ve been dismissed and ignored and even felt betrayed a time or two.

This year I’ve made a commitment to myself and my health.

I will no longer allow myself to be treated negatively over something I have no control over.

I will no longer accept ignorance as an excuse for any lack of understanding about my diagnosis from the…

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PIP assessment

Yesterday’s post did not mention my PIP assessment I had, as I did not want to drag away from what I was feeling that night in the previous post. It was a long day for me yesterday, as I was up at 5.45am. I was going to get up at 6am, but when I woke up then, I thought I’d get up. I was surprised I wasn’t tired with lack of sleep, but obviously, by the end of the night, I was knackered and drained by the time of the work scenario.
I was up early, as I had to compensate setting out earlier than normal as mum was coming with me this time. So I wasn’t alone.
When we arrived in Nottingham and literally around the corner from the place of where the assessment would take hold, we had a hot drink and a little something to eat, till it was nearer to time for my appointment. I did not lose my way this time and for going the right way this time, I could see there was more options to visit till appointment time. The cafe we had chosen was Tuckers, which was opposite the Kitty Cafe. The staff were nice and welcoming and we actually went back there after my assessment for lunch, before making our way home.

As you will know, I have been worried about the PIP assessment due to not feeling that the form suits people with a hearing loss. Also from what I have read and heard from people affected directly with regards to it, in which people who are entitled, lose it. On top of that, as you know, the first time it was cancelled and I did not know until I arrived there, in which I found it was them who tried to phone me, even though my PIP form clearly stated to only use my mobile number for texting, as deaf. They also did not book my Lipspeaker. So I had every right to feel concerned about this appointment.

After signing myself in and meeting my Lipspeaker, the first call was the toilet for me, then we made our way downstairs to wait in a private waiting room outside the room where I would be assessed. While waiting for my turn to be assessed, it was a chat with my Lipspeaker to get to know one another with not meeting her before and for her to know how I would like her to help me, finding out if I knew any sign and if I wanted her to use that too.

The assessment

When it was time to go in the room, I pointed to the chair for my mum to sit at and I sat next to her, facing my Lipspeaker and the woman who was to be assessing me. After the formalities were out-of-the-way, in which I decided I wanted to see if I could lipread and hear the assessor first and if not, then I would look at my Lipspeaker, for her to repeat what she had said.
I found the assessor had a tone of voice that was right for me, but there were times after trying to lipread her for a while that I did end up using the Lipspeaker to get it repeated. When my mum spoke to add her part, I relied on the Lipspeaker to tell me what she had said every time, as she was sat a little further back from me and I can’t lipread sideways on, on top that I don’t hear my mum as well now.
Some questions were a repeat that were already on the PIP form and some were new. This gave me a chance to add, or amend anything by doing this. Every time the assessor spoke to me, she always looked at me directly so I could see her face. She never covered it and when she asked some certain questions about my hearing loss, I felt with this and making sure she always looked at me when she spoke that she had awareness. I have read how some assessors have not been helpful and done tests that were not acceptable towards deaf, but I have never received anything in the assessment room that was not acceptable. She only asked questions, nothing else.
My assessment was under an hour and although it was relaxing in the room, I wasn’t fully relaxed because of questions I would know that would possibly come, when it came to talking about my depression and anxiety. I thought more questions were going to be asked than that with regards to my depression, so just when I thought I may not hold it  together on the subject she asked me, it was on to a different topic.
I did have tears in my eyes after a particular question about how I feel and why. I don’t know if it may have been obvious to her. It’s not nice saying how you truly feel in front of your own mum, that you wish you were dead and that I have thought these thoughts, I just not acted on them. I just instead wished that when I went to bed to sleep at night, that I did not wake up the next day.

My opinions after my own PIP assessment

As I have mentioned, staff are pleasant and so is the assessor. The environment was relaxing and welcoming, even though I was not relaxed. The assessor always looked at me when she asked me questions and never ever covered here face. She even used some sign herself when she spoke, which was nice. I have the confidence that what I said, is down on those notes, but because of how I feel about the PIP application process, I still wonder whether I will get it. The waiting will be long, because of the back log, so it will be many weeks before I know anything, so until then my DLA continues, till they make their mind up at DPW.

Hoping 2

Last time I written a post about hope, was just over a month ago and I hope again. I am feeling desperate after another work night and as I write this, I am trying to calm my anxiety down. I am upset, feeling nausea and I can feel a migraine coming on, so as soon as I air this, I am off to bed. I shall let my cat sleep with me, as I know she senses my upset. She was upset from what she picked up, but is happy on my lap as I write this now.

I am hoping I can get through the next 2 days at work, then it is a long weekend. A very long one, due to having my tooth out next week.

I am hoping to get through tomorrow morning, when I visit someone who would like a small favour. Then I am hoping I get through my shift, later that day, and the next day, as already mentioned.
I would like to phone in sick, but this would be awkward to do, I think on so many levels. Not me. Them.

I am hoping I can be myself on Friday, because I have a job interview.
I am thankful I have this interview alone, but I am hoping (and desperate for this job.) My mum says to try to not get my hopes up, but I can’t help it and I am desperate. I really need this break. If I am unlucky to get this job, I would apply again if it ever came up. I would not give up. But I am hoping I will get this. I don’t know what I would do if I did not.

That’s my hoping for now.