Weird… Strange…

I have been classed weird, or strange over the years. These times are rare when they happen and when they do, it’s usually by people who don’t know me at all.

Regardless that this can still hurt when I hear this. I don’t care what they think, when they don’t know me.

I don’t automatically let anyone in. I have to know you first, then slowly the walls will go down. Depending on how much I trust you, or how much you are involved in my life will depend on whether I partly let you in, or fully let you in.

But if you do something that knocks that trust away, then the walls quickly go up and are not likely to come down for you.

When you see someone who you think is weird, or strange, rather than think that say hello and see what happens. Chances are you will get an hello back, with a smile. You don’t know their background that makes them like that. For me, I had fear of dad growing up. I was bullied at school from late junior school age and all through comprehensive. So I don’t give trust easily. I stand back and observe you, seeing what you are like. You are either going to be a person who I think may be ok. Or you may be some I don’t want to know, or don’t feel comfortable around, because how you come across. I am more cautious of men, then women, because I have been in an abusive relationship and then another relationship who years later after splitting up with him, found out what a person he was like that he was hiding and so I will never go out with a man. But if I have a man just as a friend, then it means I have trusted you as a friend. But regardless of trust, I would still never go out with a man. Being single is the way I will go. I would never be intimate again. The idea makes me sick. I have done more as a single person, than in a relationship.

So next time you are thinking someone is strange, or weird. Rather than call them up front, or behind their backs, ask yourself why that might be? Say hello because you want to be a friend, otherwise walk away and leave that person alone. They have enough to possibly contend with.

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Chit-chat extra

My favourite recipe is shortbread biscuits. I’m never bored with them.

A life lesson I’ve learned, is look after yourself first.

My scariest experience, are escalators and when I went on the ones in the London underground, I had never been on ones on those scale – long and high.
I was up and down these on several ocassions and getting more terrified.
The ones in my local area and Nottingham are much shorter and I can’t even go down on those. I have been on them many times, as a habbit to conquer my fear.
I can go up willingly, even though there may be anxiety, or a little fear. But the fear never goes coming down on one and after once stopping myself from falling forward once, or twice, that was it. I wasn’t going to attempt any further in trying, after 6 months of continous trying. So going up is all I do. But never down. I use stairs, or a lift.

My inspiration to blog was theraputic first.
Then what I shared, I learnt helped others.
It helps me to communicate with my friends, as well as share in general with you readers.

I have made friends with like-minded bloggers and a supportive community of bloggers, as well as enjoying what other people write and communicate with them at their blogs.


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Communication issues 2 – my workplace

So as you know from yesterday, I am having communication issues with deputy manager at nursing home. I know from conversations with you all, that you get just what kind of strain I am under, whether you have been following this blog for some time and knowing other circumstances prior leading to that, or whether you have not long be following and joined in that conversation of yesterday.

My tipping point where I broke, was when I was at my evening job last night and another sign of many signs of communication break down.

Now these communication break downs that happen, even before changes we all had to make for Coronavirus, is always caused by the same two people in the department.
This can be avoided if they just do what our boss told us to do and not what they think they should do.

By chance, my boss was coming round to see me, to see how I was getting on, with not seeing me for a few weeks and could see things were not ok.

So I told her about what has been going on since we were all back in our normal shifts and as usual, what she tells us to do, the usual two like to do it differently and not what she says, with a little huffing and blowing of their own, because me, or other cleaners are fed up them telling us different to what she (boss) says. And then we have someone else, who is fed up like us, because there are times he isn’t filled in on what is the latest that he should be doing.

She was understandable as ever. Said what she would do about this and then she talked about what is happening elsewhere, that we wouldn’t see happening on our shift.

She understands that if this could be sorted and helping me do my job without the unnecessary upset, it would make my difficult life much easier. At least at work. I said it would. I would cope. I said I am not going to have that kind of behavior as I got at start of shift, when he does the opposite of what we are all being told.
I said it’s always him, or another name I mentioned, that do not follow what you say and instead say, this is how it goes. I’m sick if it.

This morning I am exhausted. I need to go to mum’s bungalow to do something. I will mention in a later post. But I am hoping that when home and after lunch, to get one or two hours shut eye, that I usually need at least once a week.


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Happy to sad and back again

So without trying to go into much detail and make this post long. If you have been following for sometime, you will know it has been a very difficult time, for some time, with my mum and how it’s affected me during that course.

Part of the afternoon, (just 2 hours abouts) it was a whirlwind of emotions.
During that time a fair bit of communicating earlier in the day to after lunch in parts. I decided with communicating to my mum’s Social Worker about it, that I was going to take on responsibility of mum’s financial affairs. I wasn’t going to let the council do it because in the end I would have no say. But as Social Worker also mentioned, it wouldn’t have been personal, like it would if a family member took charge. So Social Worker is happy to hear I will take it on. So I will be applying for Court Of Protection.
Court Of Protection has to happen with there being no Power of Attorney and a Power Of Attorney can’t be done now, because mum doesn’t have the mental capacity.

Although I will get eventually reimbursed, due to this, the hoping of having a house deposit by middle of next year is not going to happen. I shall have to see what the year after brings, because I know from already reading about Court of Protection, that there is a fee each year. I don’t know if that would come out of mum’s, or mine. But I will learn as it happens.
The fee is higher the first year, because of the support you receive for the role. I may talk about that experience later, when the time comes. Or I may not. It’s starting to feel even more of a very personal journey. Not just for me. But mum too. So it more will likely be the part I won’t talk about here.

So the 2 hour window of emotions came on as soon as I knew I would take it on. I went from feeling good and happy, to sad. A quick headache appearing. Sadness turned to tears, for the reality biting more, that mum will never be as independent as I would like and the nursing home being only option where mum will be.

Mum’s Social Worker is supporting me where required. She advised how I could proceed, via two ways.
I could do it myself online, or if I find it difficult, then to use a solicitor, although extra costs would be involved.
I tried the link and looked at the forms and procedures, for where I could do it myself and it felt very daunting and I wasn’t feeling confident with it. So I enquired with two solicitors.
First one, after reading their email, regardless my savings would cover, my heart was sinking as I totalled the fees. Some of these fees could go up, or it was minus the VAT. I knew my dream home wouldn’t happen next year, because it was going to gobble most of my savings. (Although before all this, I wondered if it would happen anyway.) But now, it’s definitely not.
The second solicitor was more clearer than the first. There were no grey areas and would work out cheaper.
Still expensive. But cheaper and I was feeling very relaxed reading this email. So the happy face returned. So the second solicitor will get the job.
Yes, it may cost more this way than trying it myself. But it will be less stressful and I will feel reassured. I can concentrate on other things.

I was going to buy Christmas presents this year, for friends. But now, I think I have to give it a miss this year. So I hope you are reading this, so you are all aware. It saves me letting you know individually. So let’s just stick with Christmas cards again.
This is going to be a slow process. So I need to focus on this, instead of shopping for presents. I know you, my friends will understand.


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My feelings – Part 8

So it’s been about 4 months since my last, ‘my feelings’ post.
Part 7 was mainly my feelings brought on with the Coronavirus, due to things from that.
In this post there still is, but it doesn’t overtake like last post, because I’m working again in both jobs still, since back in them.
But as for the rest, some restrictions may have been lifted, but as you know if you are a regular reader, that I am in no hurry to go out there and join in.
I  continue to walk to and from work in both jobs and I shop at my local supermarket just down the road at most, twice a week. Nothing else, unless it’s important.
I think its too soon to go into my town centre and shop there. I have already seen, or experienced it myself where people don’t observe the 2 metre distance, so I ain’t going to join the crowd of shoppers (if there was in my area) for a shopping spree. I do this to protect others, to make sure I’m not going to be a carrier, because some person not observing social distancing, who is not in my circle, unsuspecting passed it onto me because they did not keep their distance. I had to politely tick someone off at the checkout of my local supermarket I was at, because she stood right behind me, instead of 2 metres. She moved back when I spoke. But it still wasn’t enough.

I have mentioned in brief in places as well as here, of going to my mum’s bungalow. I’ll be doing another trip this month. My anxiety was up in the roof going Friday. It didn’t help that I was expected to go with just less than 24 hours notice, to let in a council worker to do a service check of the boiler.
Regardless of the anxiety, it helped knowing my neighbour offered to help and take me.
I brought some things back while at it, that I hope to take to the nursing home one day. Just waiting on an email for that.
I also brought back her paperwork in folders that I planned to do, in addition to the mail that’s been piling up since November, when I was last there.
Amazingly, I sorted through that by the evening. But then with a system in place which I am so glad my mum has not got rid of again, since creating it again, helps.

Going through her paperwork regardless of anxiety, I realised I got my ‘business head’ on that I like to call it. It reminded me that this side of things I could do. But given the current situation with mum, which I have not shared with you fuly yet, I can’t do anything else, with not having access. But I won’t want to deal with everything when it comes to certain things anyway, I rather do this with someone else when this part has been sorted and someone is nominated, like the Social Worker mentioned one time on how things may go, if it happened.

I would like to transfer my mum’s mail to my address, but again, due to circumstances, I can’t do yet, until all this is sorted out.
Given the discussions this past week I’ve been having with mum’s Social Worker and her advocate, the long term solutions are being discussed, so the ball might be rolling, as they say.
I can see it will happen. Mum is not mentally well and from what I’ve been told, she’s declining further.
I am sad that this is what the future will be for my mum. But if nursing home is only the option, then where she is currently, I would like her to stay there, if mum is still not going to be able to communicate herself still. The nursing home is a suitable place for her needs and, it feels homely and theraputic.
When things have been decided officially, I will say more at some point later.


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Blog post re-share: Not had a rant for days…..

I totally agree with what Gary says in this post.

A Dad trying to cope with the loss of his Partner and becoming a single parent.

I came outside to look at the roses. And breathe..

The UK Government has a natural ability to take the breathe away. What are the words I am looking for

Self-serving

Incompetence

Charlatan

Criminally negligent

Fraud

Part timers

Out of their depth

Nest of vipers

Dangerous

Liars

Elitist

One rule for the many, doesn’t apply to them

When you think it can’t get any worse and then they take it a new level……

So on the 4th July Britain is open for business again. Something we all can sign up to if it’s done properly and safely. But this is Boris Johnson we are talking about. The laziest and most inept Prime Minister in over 150 years. So here are just a few nuggets of his so called plan

  • The governments own scientists have warned against easing restrictions too soon. If we do the safe way is to do that…

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Chit-chat June

Two cancellations; day trip to Oxford in August and check-up at dentist, in July. Both to be expected and both a relief. A relief because I don’t have to travel on bus to either of them. I had anxiety about the idea of it, regardless I now have face masks and would use.
I let my friend know, as soon as I knew regarding Oxford.
The coach company asked if I would like to cancel Oxford because they could see it probably wouldn’t be happening, while I was seeing what was happening regarding refund for Whitby that was cancelled last month and so I said yes. I quickly received refund for both and that’s now in my ISA.
As for dentist, it was cancelled to a later date in September, so priority could be given to emergencies and those needing to finish their treatment.
They also answered my other concerns I had regarding accessibility for me as a deaf person, after watching their video clip of what to expect when coming to the practise. The changes to protect both staff and customers, because of Coronavirus.
So I do hope that goes as discussed via an email with me.

This month, I have been reading this book.

Book cover of The Awakened by Julian Cheek.

The book is called, ‘The Awakened,’ by Julian Cheek. I picked just this one up from several books left on a table at work, with a note, ‘help yourself.’
The story I read on the back, grabbed me, because I could relate to the feelings of the character, having one time at a young age for a number of years, felt like that.

This book kept me engaged and I couldn’t wait to read more, to see what happened next.

Store loyalty cards

As you know not long ago, I shredded my Costa card, after receiving an email from them.

I have now decided to ditch another store card. This time Tesco Clubcard. Unlike Costa, they’ve done nothing wrong for me to decide on doing this. I have debated past year, or two on doing this and now I thought, I will. So an email went yesterday requesting that they close my account down and why; which was my decision to get rid of some store loyalty cards and this being one of them that I want to get rid.
Also with not having any plans to shop in Tesco while they do one thing that another store doesn’t do, that I can’t contend with and so avoiding the place ever since Coronavirus started, just adds to my decision of closing down my account.
I said that even if one day I start to shop again, or visit their cafe, I still don’t want to bother with a Tesco Clubcard.

I am thinking of ditching another card later. But thinking a little longer on that one before making any decision. But it’s nice to get rid of Costa and Tesco one.

Just some dvd’s I watched: (courtesy of my neighbour lending me theirs.) 

  • The Rocky Horror Show
  • Open Range
  • Ladies in Lavender
  • Family Guy Presents Blue Harvest
  • Stargate Atlantis
  • Master and Commander
  • Grease 1 and 2
  • Planes, Trains Automobiles
  • The Beatles Yellow Submarine (I don’t mind their music, but I’m not a fan of this cartoon.)
  • Mama Mia The Movie
  • Frances Mcdormand Fargo
  • Joseph and The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat

Blogger, if WordPress does get rid of ‘classic editor’ in 2022, or later. 

I gave up Blogger, after having no joy.
I want to remind, as I mentioned before, that it wasn’t because of Blogger. It was me. The whole WordPress thing really put a damper on my mood and I wasn’t enjoying the process of moving some posts across for my story to continue.
I was in a frustrated, spit my dummy out kind of mood and feeling down about it.
The plan was to keep my name of my blog, when blogging there, hence some posts going across to Blogger.

But now, I have decided, should WordPress in 2022, or later, decide to get rid of their classic editor, leaving only block editor left, I will start afresh with a new blog, at Blogger. This will include also, a new name. So I will be brainstorming a new name, should I need one later. I have plenty of time to think about that one, should I end up leaving here. But I will have one part set up with Blogger before then, not visible until it is required.

Don’t forget, as I mentioned in past posts, I have a new blog email. It’s a neutral blog email name I have chosen, so regardless what I would call my new blog, this blog email would remain. You can find it on my about me page.
I still reckon the time will come when WordPress will do this, because the way they spoke on a forum, they are speaking in words that they will commit with this.
I hope classic editor remains to stay as a choice always, because I am not alone in this on why classic editor is best for me.

I have a post in draft that is for goodbyes, ready for if its needed in a few years. I hope I manage to put blog link on it, if post is needed.
Although this blog would eventually go if moving, I may keep WordPress account open for coming back to, so I can comment on blogs I currently follow. But I won’t be following any new ones at that point when not blogging here.

But as I say, this is if worst scenario that WordPress does this.

Work

It was back to normal working hours this month, in my evening job.
Even though I have seen changes made (while I was cleaning there at an earlier time,) to try and make our workplace safer, it still caused me anxiety and I still had same thoughts as the other ladies who were furloughed, as in, what am I going to walk into.

Also more work put onto us, but no extra time to do it in. There are also some things asked of us that are not achievable, so it has caused me stress, upset and frustration. I spoke with my manager after just over 2 weeks doing it my concerns and how it has affected me and I was given reassurances to these concerns, so I should be ok now.
I also raised my observations after my accident, wondering why the floor had not been taped, so someone else doesn’t trip on the tile I had acciddent on, until its sorted. They didn’t know about it until they heard it from me. So they checked to see it had been filed by person I reported it to, but it was filed under a different department. Their old department. So if I was to have an accident in the future that I report, to let them know also, so they know about it, to action it.

My hamster, Daz. 

This month was Daz’s birthday. He’s now one year old.

My phone

I have done a right one, that I have never done in all the years being a mobile phone owner.
As I quickly glanced at my phone before my shift started, the door propped open with a door stopper, decided to move and, slammed into my back. My phone slipped out of my hand and took a dive into a bucket of water.
Now my phone is supposedly water resistant when I read the description for my phone before buying at the time, but reading elsewhere, I read the oppsite when it comes to any phone and not just mine, that there is no such thing as a water resistant, or waterproof phone. Well it was still working after it happened, but I didn’t charge it when it was needed and left it till the next day. As a precaution, I bought a second hand phone as a back up, should this pack up later, because I have read what the damage water can do to a phone, over time. So although fine at the moment, at the time I written this post to publish later. It’s what might happen down the line.

My budget

Those that have been following some time will know my preferred way of paying my groceries is by cash. I find it easier to set my budget for each week this way, so I don’t spend more than I need. But because of some places only wanting you to pay by card, (which I have noticed since then, they have changed their signage to cash and card) and others if paying by cash then use self-checkouts, I ended up going the pay by card route.
I have been doing this the last 2 months, so early days I feel to give myself a chance to get used to paying by card, but because how muddled my brain feels towards end of last month and how I feel this month, I am going back to what I feel is easy for me. Paying my groceries by cash.
The first month out of two I tried by card I spent more than my budget. But it was expected that month and so no mistake on my part.
Last month, I felt I was a little more used to paying this way, but I still went over my budget. But only by a few pounds.
Whether I will go back to paying mainly by card for my groceries when I feel better with my mind, I don’t know. I am not ruling it out. But for now, I am sticking with cash, when it comes to my groceries. I have ended up getting used to self-checkouts. (Those that know me well, will know I hate them and I avoid them.) But I don’t hate them anymore and I don’t avoid, unless I choose to pay by card of course.
I know self-checkouts accept bank cards, but that’s where my nerves would start again. So will leave that for now.

Anxiety

As you know I suffer with anxiety and I have shared at the beginning of this post the anxiety for travelling. Most of the time it’s at acceptable levels. But as you know, when it creeps up, it goes up. Like the idea of travelling on public transport. I am avoiding so far.
Like everyone else, Coronavirus affected that, but I am also noticing how jumpy I am getting. (And I haven’t seen the odd horror film for a long time.)
I am assuming this is due to me being on high alert for some time now, that’s causing this.
Are you feeling extra jumpy too?


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It’s the weekend

I am ready for this weekend, just like last week’s. The only difference, I don’t feel as bad tiredness wise. Just been stressed and frustrated in parts still. But again, not as bad as last week.
Anxiety has been moderate, with some high moments.

I have naturally gone for sweet stuff. Not pigging at it, but having more than I usually, which that has proven to me, because I have done this, that this can affect me mood wise, as in feeling hyper at times in the day, after having it and then sometimes waking up in the night with that jumpy feeling, or when I wake up in the morning, jumping out of my sleep.

Anyway… I have nothing to report of plans much for this weekend, as all I plan to do is have a lazy one. Non stop dvd’s.

It’s just to switch off and not use my brain, because of how I have been struggling keeping up with things these past 2 weeks, getting my head around new way of things at evening job and other times my brain has been thinking more than it needs to, because I have been confused.

Having this lazy weekend will also help my body heal and relax from accident at work, two nights ago. I tripped on a slightly uneven floor tile at work. How I kept myself upright, I do not know. But I banged my right elbow in the process and my left ankle hurts. I did have a sore spot also, just below the knee on same leg, but that seemed to have gone yesterday, so it’s just left ankle and right elbow.

Originally, Saturday was when I was going to take it further with regards to Holland and Barrett. But I am leaving that, at the moment. I just need to switch off. But I did send another email. This time using their complaints email. I still don’t have faith in them. I feel that regardless of me using the complaints email, that it will still be same staff as with other email I used. I said at the start of the email that preferably, I would like the Manager to deal with this complaint.
They have until 22nd June, then I AM going to PayPal, after realising I can do it that way. So if going to PayPal happens, I will be asking for a part refund, for the items not received and complaining again there in regards to no customer service, which has been the main annoyance about all this, as you know.

See post, Do not shop online at Holland and Barrett, where I first mentioned about them, if you have not seen it already.

As I need to switch off, I don’t know if I will pop in at any time over the weekend, but don’t let that you stop you commenting, as I will look forward to what you have to share. 🙂

Hope you are ok. What’s your weekend?

For anyone who’s just seeing dark clouds and drizzle, I leave you with some blue skies with fluffy clouds. (My umbrella.)

My umbrella which has blue sky and fluffy white clouds on it


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Not in a hurry…

I plucked up the courage not long ago and decided to shop in a supermarket that is cheaper for a majority of things and where I usually go quite a lot, with my anxiety levels improving.
I went in mainly for my fruit and vegetables.

I avoided this place for many reasons and as I expected, I was right.  A majority of the shoppers in there did not respect their 2 meter distance, while shopping! Only when I was at the till, was 2 meter followed by the general public.

I prepped some of the vegetables I bought, for the freezer.

Will I go in there again, knowing I was right on my suspicions?

I don’t want to, but budget-wise I am going to have to, if I would like to stick to my budget from this month. But if I can avoid, I will. I’m not in a hurry, even with my face covered, I will not go in and I will avoid, if I can.
I let the council know about this, so it was forwarded to the appropriate department.
I think the store needs to start putting on security at their door, given our current situation.
From reading about this store, it’s happening in other areas too, as well as at another retailer I have not and will not shop in, while it’s like this.
The council got back to me on Monday, to let me know they were dealing with my complaint and to inform me what they will be doing, which was to pay a visit and take a look then adivise where needed. Apparently they have had previous discussions with them.

I still don’t go in another supermarket since all the changes came in due to Coronavirus. This is because I know they have arrows on their floor for particular direction they want you to walk down, in their aisles. This for me visually and mentally is too much to contend with; observing the 2 meter distance, observing where others are that follow, or don’t, the anxiety I can still get at times, which is worse when others are not observing their distance, to predict their next move. And especially when I am only picking up a few bits, as I have not used it as my main shop for years. So as long as it remains like that, when another supermarket doesn’t do that and while I feel as I do, I will avoid the place.
There is no need for that. Two meter markings is enough, just like the other store does. You don’t need arrows on top. Although I wouldn’t be surprised if it’s ignored by some. Maybe one day, I will feel I can mentally do this and go in. But I don’t see it happening anytime soon. I’m in no hurry.
As I have a loyalty card with them, they will see I don’t shop there at the moment. I was in there often before, including their cafe where I’d go in just before work, for a cuppa. When things lift even further one day, I won’t be in any hurry to go there for shopping, or for the cafe, when they can open.
I still haven’t walked through my town centre, since lockdown came in. That’s why I have ordered some things from Holland and Barrett, as well as Boots that I needed, or wanted, as they are in the town centre. I have no intentions walking in the town centre anytime soon.
I have not walked through the park, or nature reserve either, since all this and its not something I plan doing anytime soon. I’m in no hurry.

As much as I would like to support restaurants and cafes I went in before Coronavirus. I am in no hurry to return. The only chance I may go to a cafe and only, would be just for a drink, but only if I am sitting outside with it.


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A question for my readers in the UK regarding their mortgage

This question is for anyone living in the UK, who has had a mortgage in the last 5 years, to present. 

Is your mortgage payment, under, or over £500 per month?

Just reply with your answer as under, or over. There is no need to tell me your actual amount. 


With this lockdown and everything else in my life. But especially the lockdown. The lockdown has made me rather desperate now to be living in a house, with a garden.

I have felt so caged in because I dare not go out for a walk out on the nature reserve, or park, because of everyone else doing it and not having control of that 2 meter distance.
And same with regards of sitting just outside my flat in the garden, along with maybe not getting my own peace and quiet during that time. My only  walking is when it’s work, or groceries, as I have mentioned before.

I am sick of the neighbours still opposite and, their latest antics and with not being able to travel to other areas, it’s making me feel caged.

Now if I was in a house, I would be sat in the garden, or doing something in the garden. I would not have felt caged. This lockdown has clearly shown me that.
I envy those right now that are in their garden resting, or planting their veg, or flowers. Or just doing that little bit of weeding.

So these last two weeks the way I have been going about my mortgage originally, I have been thinking, do I need to change plans to my original plan? Still, those plans I am thinking, may take at least a year, to a year and a half to achieve, if I use those new tatics. But that doesn’t feel as bad as what was 3 years. Plus, if I stick with my original plan then I now know it definitely won’t happen in 3 years, due to less being put aside. It will never happen if I stick to that plan. Unless I win the lottery. Which I don’t play.

As some will know already, I am seriously conteplating on moving out of this flat now, to a rented house, when restrictions are lifted. But I am holding off for two reasons.

1. Now is definitely not the right time to move in the next few months, because what may arise with my mum. It would be too much to handle mentally.

2. If I am going to change my plan and use a new plan in regards to buying my own home then there is no point moving into a rented one, because this may be more achievable.

So I am hoping to focus on just getting through the next 8 months to a year, counting from now. I can’t bear to think of anything longer than this. Then I will go from there


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