Chit-chat June

My new job

3rd June, I started my new morning cleaning job.
As you will know from earlier posts, I wasn’t too sure about this job. But both my employer and the client where I am cleaning, are nice, which makes it relaxing in that way. But my first day at work was not impressionable, as I revealed here: Job shopping.

After 4 days, I decided to put my notice in. I gave just over a weeks notice. I decided to do this after having a panic attack, prior to setting out. I had irritable bowel a few occasions, with the stress too.
After I put my notice in, both my employer and the place I clean tempted me to stay. But I did not. It wasn’t for me.
When speaking with the manager, she apologised for coming across the way she did, on my first day. She did not mean to cause me stress. As I have said before and I said to her, I totally got where she was coming from, but she did scare me a little.
It turns out she is happy with my work and wanted to know how she could reduce my stress, which I discussed, but said I am not going to stay, because I am not impressed who I work for, as I wasn’t impressed with my line manager on my first day, which we talked further about.
We also chatted about other things. I said they wouldn’t see the last of me as I will come here for lunch at times, when I can afford to. I do like it here, but the job is not for me.

Something else is in the pipeline, possibly, work wise though. I basically will be cleaning for my same employers that I have worked for now, for over year, that I have enjoyed every minute of. The only difference, is a new area to clean at and a different person to speak to, for this job. This morning cleaning job is less hours. But it may go up to some more. It’s temporary, to possibly permanent, because of the circumstances. I chose to accept, whether this turn out to be permanent, or not. I am currently waiting on this, if it is still happening. I shall have to email on the matter, in another week, if I hear nothing more.

Supporting mum

I supported mum with her appointment, to do with her mental health. An appointment my mum did not want to attend, or travel to. So I got to see this psychiatrist for the first time, who my mum has seen before. This psychiatrist was really nice and when we left, mum said she liked her. I just had to laugh, because of how this dislike now became to be a like.
The mental health team that have been there since mum was discharged from hospital, have discharged my mum and she is now seeing a CPN, who reports back to her psychiatrist.

Day trip in Oxford

I met up with my friend, in Oxford. It’s been some time since we last met and this year was precious, with me only being able to visit Oxford once this year.
I received a lovely parcel from my friend of goodies, to put a smile on my face. Which it did and all put to good use.

Stone art

I have been doing some stone art for the first time last month.

(Images of these two stone arts below are mine. © Elizabeth Fisher.)

Mum likes the hedgehog and wanted me to paint her one. Paying me for it, so asked me what I would charge, if I decide in selling these, if I did more. This current hedgehog and my ‘breathe’ stone art is not for sale, but as I said to mum, if I paint another hedgehog, the pebble needs to give me the impression of a hedgehog.
These photos were taken before I varnished them and are now, or are finished being varnished in matt varnish, as this post airs.

New commenters on my blog, beware.

I am noticing I am getting new followers, or just new commenters, that when they decide to leave comments they leave only words along the lines of, “nice post,” or “great post,”
I have started to challenge those commenters by asking on the lines of, “What did you find nice/great about it?” As I expected, I didn’t get a response back. So readers beware, if you do start to leave comments like that, especially if you are not a regular commenter, or it’s first time commenting, I am not going to air a comment that just says “great post,” or similar. You need to explain further why. I would rather you just click the like button, after reading, if you can’t emphasize on the “great post,” comment. Thank you.

I would like to remind new commenters also, if your comment feels spammy and nothing to do with post in question, it won’t get aired.

And any comments that have a link in the comment, will be edited and removed. This was one of many things that annoy me, as I mentioned in this post when I re-shared another blogger’s post on the topic. That can be found here: Blog post re-share: 7 Telltale Signs Of A Desperate Blogger — Renard’s World.
Any comments I do edit, readers will know, because I will write below in that comment inside brackets, pointing out I edited it and why. Like for example, links removed. But if the comment has no meaning to topic, it simply won’t get aired.

I have already started editing comments before this post aired, that broke my blog rules.

I have always stated on my Policies/Disclaimer page about editing comments accordingly if they don’t follow my blog’s rules. I have also done posts reminding readers of this. Mostly, I have readers that follow this, but some are creeping through that are not, so I will be hitting hard and following my rules from now on.

I have started volunteering somewhere else

I have started volunteering in my own local area of Mansfield, for a local conservation group. My first meet up was one Saturday, for litter picking. I went around with another volunteer and I spent nearly two hours picking up litter, around Quarry Lane Nature Reserve.
It was the first time I have been on this nature reserve and it was lovely. I was impressed and I enjoyed participating with the group of volunteers. I hope to join in with them, on future events.
There are regular various events and people just dip and out of these different events. You come and do what you fancy.

DVD’s watched:

  • (Re-watched) As Good As It Gets
  • (Re-watched) Sum of all Fears
  • (Re-watched) Man of Steel

Getting my remaining answers from HMRC Working Tax Credit (WTC) department

The second week into June, I received a letter from my local MP who was chasing up my remaining questions I had in regards to WTC.
Finally, those remaining questions were answered and now I can say case closed. But if it wasn’t for my local MP and his caseworker, I would not have got my answers. It has taken nearly two months to get my follow-up email of questions to be answered.
But my feelings still stand when it comes to WTC, or Universal Credit that gets so much bad press, that I will avoid these two benefits, regardless of any struggles.
Having these questions answered and having it in writing, puts my mind at ease and I can finally move on from this.

No more Mr squirrel, (or Mrs)

In all the time I  have lived where I currently live, I have only ever seen one squirrel in the garden of where I live. I would see this squirrel regular at certain times, but unfortunately, I will see this squirrel no more.
The weekend my mum came over and joined in with Fibbing Friday for the first time, on a Sunday morning when she came to set out and meet me after I had finished work, she came across a dead squirrel, just outside the grounds of the property, on the pavement. Mum got rid of it, as she did not want me to ser it. It upset her too and she wasn’t going to tell me. But thankfully, mum did. Mum knew how much I looked out for the squirrel. There has been no sighting of a squirrel, so as I already sadly assumed, it looks like it’s the one I used to watch. 

Asthma

This year, of all the years I have had asthma, I consider this year, the first year to find my asthma a nuisance.
After having my latest episode to continue for some time and nothing really changing after following my asthma care plan, I ended up going to the doctors.
I first seen the nurse, who was concerned on a few matters and so an appointment with the doctor was made for the same day, just a few hours later.
After examination and finding I had no signs of a chest infection, I was given a short course of steroids. If no better, to go back.
The sleepless nights that I have had, have just added to my exhaustion and so I may take an extended break from blogging.

Blogging break

And as most of you will know, I am currently taking a blogging break and won’t be back until later in July, as mentioned in an earlier post aired. So any comments won’t get aired until then and replied to. I may require a further break than planned. If that’s the case, I will post a further update, to let you know.

I thank everyone for their kind support and patience, while I take the required break I need.

Chit-chat January

In December, I decided to quit my home study course. There was still no motivation, but also no desire, or need to do it. Prior to that, I have not touched for about a year, due to circumstances as you know. One being I held off due to grieving for my two family members, that went together when they were hit by a careless driver.

I then learnt just three days later, (after the funeral) as you know, of an ex and the awful thing he had done that left me reeling and feeling sick. This still haunts me.

I tried last November to get back into it, but I couldn’t and then again in December, but still couldn’t, along with no desire, or need to do it. So I shredded and binned the course. Even doing that, I felt nothing, or no regret for doing it.

The year of 2019 for me is just to get back into my crafts, in some way. When I started doing Sharpie Sunday, this first sparked off my crafty side again, while releasing anything emotionally.
I’ve also done other prompts, that I shared on my blog, that got me back into drawing some way.

As well as sketching, colouring and doodling, I will hopefully do a bit of cross stitching and maybe later crotchet. If I do get back into crotchet, I may need to re-learn the basics.

What ever crafts I decide to do, I shall do in my own time and I’m sure I will share something on here now and again.

I hope to also go on at least a couple of day trips, with a possible third, if I can afford it.

I also plan to walk around my neighbourhood.

I loved reading “The Ice Monster,” by David Walliams. I can’t remember the last time I have laughed so much with a book, as I have done with this one.

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I even read it for a second time. I definitely want to read more of his books and although aimed for children, I bet I am not the only adult enjoying them also. Even my mum has enjoyed reading it.
I was thinking of doing this book as a giveaway on my blog later. But only if there is interest, as a few book giveaways I have done in the past, not all seamt popular. Would you be interested entering, if I did?

My audiology appointment I had after Boxing Day, which I had my hearing test as planned shown my worser ear remains stable, when it comes to my hearing. My left ear I could see there was a change, which surprised me, because hearing wise with that ear I don’t feel there is any change. But I was reassured not to worry about it, because depending on time and day, my mood and other factors, it can seem it looks like it’s changed now, but not necessarily in the long run. I’m not worried anyway, but I was relieved to see my right ear remains stable, which is my deafer ear.
An appointment was made to see the hearing specialist, with regards to the sensitivity to sound I was having. (The right ear being the worst ear for sensitivity.) I went on the 3rd January for this. At this appointment, I talked about my sensitivity to sounds I am experiencing. My hearing aids were then checked and, adjusted and my remote was checked to make sure it was still paired up ok with my hearing aids. (My remote makes it easier to adjust volume and programmes easily, especially when wearing  covers over them.)

First impressions from leaving there and throughout the day, I noticed the adjustment was a positive improvement for me. There was a tiny amount of sensitivity with right ear still, but I did not feel the urge to turn down that hearing aid.
As the week progressed, leading up to now as this post airs, the rest is calming down and in general, that tiny bit of sensitivity in right ear is hardly much. It’s doesn’t bother my general day-to-day as before and not something I notice all the time. So I reckon in time soon, it will completely go that I never realised when it actually did.

I mentioned in an earlier post that I may have ‘Hyperacusis’ after a friend shared me some info on it, after I told her of my difficulties and with seeing the audiologist and specialist, it does confirm this.
Deaf people are known to get this, but more common apparently with late deafened. Reading more about it on the way home from the audiologist, I learnt that a life event, like bereavement can bring it on. So with my own two life events I have had, it certainly makes more sense.

To read more about Hyperacusis, you can find out more about here at The British Tinnitus Association.

What’s your plans for 2019?

(This post, I shall keep open to comments for a month.)

Sewing fun

I have heard of a magazine called, “Mollie Makes,” for the last few month’s, but this magazine has been going for much longer, as the magazine I bought was issue 94.
I decided to buy this, after Bexa reviewed this issue, where you had everything to make the toucan keyring. See Bexa’s review, over here.

Here is mine that I made.

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I have learnt a couple of new stitches making this; blanket stitch and whipstitch. As well as these, I brushed up in some old stitches not used for a while.

I really enjoyed making this and I imagine I will look at making something else with felt soon, as I have felt already and thread’s. I am thinking of looking at making something that involves using bean bag filling, as I have plenty of this.

This will be someone’s Christmas present this year, with money being a bit tight currently. I know this will be well received.

Day 17 of the #blurtselfcareathon – Create

One time I used to make lots of handmade cards and I did this for several years till I stopped. (I enjoy buying handmade cards now, than making.) Since then, I have done cross stitching, ( only small pieces.) I started to learn crochet, but this kinda stopped with home studying taking over. But with having Miley, she devoted my time, because she was the type of cat that liked to be around me when she could. Those small moments I did not have when she had time to herself, I was either studying, or did not want to do anything. Now Miley is no longer around, I hope to get back into my crochet where I have left off. My craft storage has stayed in my living room since where I placed it, when I cleared the dining room as much as I could for the decorator. I have now kept it there, as it looks perfect next to my settee and ideal if I fancy having a dabble at something. I will only have to reach over. 🙂 My crochet book is on the bottom shelf of my coffee table. This book goes through all the basics etc… so I am hoping that this will help me to carry on where I left off, instead of going back where I learned. But if I need to go back, I will be welcomed. My crochet stuff is in a cotton bag, as no room in the craft storage, that already contains pencil crayons, felt tips, sketch pads/books, cross stitching stuff, wool and another project, should I ever start it, as well as some other craft books of planned crafts. There is also a tub with some fabric to recycle into crafts of new things I have discovered. So new learning and have a go projects, as well as large loom.

Dabbling in crafts makes you a feel-good. It is time out for you and takes your mind away from things that may be troublesome. It is something to look back at, if you are keeping it in the home.

Have a go at trying something new and find that new confidence in where you can say, I made this.

#blurtselfcareathon #theblurtfoundation #mentalhealth #selfcare

New craft ideas

I like crafts, but for sometime I have not done any. When I am not working, or studying, or what ever else in between, I am relaxing with my cat, Miley, who likes to take my time.  I sometimes cannot even read a book, because she likes to get my full attention when on my lap. 😀
When I have free-time at some point, I would like to get back into my new hobby, crocheting, which has stopped since I shared this post; “Crochet.” I would like to also do some small cross stitching pieces one day, as well as doing some things with pom poms I make like owls for example.

I have also come across a Facebook group called, “Up-Cycled Collective” and I am following the regional group of this, “Friends of the Up-Cycled Collective UK & Ireland.” It’s a mixture of things on both these groups that involve creations from fabric. The idea is to reuse fabric that would otherwise go on a landfill and there are some inspiring creations there. I am interested in one day having a go at braid rugs, or making something from handmade scrap fabric twine, like coasters, or table mats.
Both these groups are closed groups, so you would have to request to join, if it’s a group for you. They are both very welcoming groups.

Crochet

I first revealed here, in this post of learning crochet, by showing you a photo near the end of that post of a small piece I was practising on. Since then, that piece currently looks like this.

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I have really taken to crochet and enjoy it, so I know this new hobby will be something of a regular one. This crochet piece, I shall turn into a small purse, as I did not want to undo my first piece of practise work. I will put a wooden button on the front, when done. I have learnt where I went wrong at the end, which was missing a stitch due to me being tight with the stitches at first and the stitches I have learnt so far the following stitches: slip knot, chain stitch, which is your base for stitches, double crochet, half treble and treble stitch. What a brain exerciser. The only problem I am going to have, is remembering the name to the stitch I know how to do.

Next week, I plan to start a new project. I want to do a striped blanket for my bed in colours that will go with what I already have in my bedroom. I already have some wool, but I may need more later, which is not a problem, as she always has this in. I shall be taking in my iPad to show the blanket I want to create in my chosen colours, as this was the kind of stripes I was looking for my blanket to go on my bed.

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I look forward to doing this project and when I have completed it, I will share in another blog post next year.

I will always love the guitar, but I do not have the mindset to learn how to play, or the motivation.

I revealed here sometime back, how I have been learning and enjoying playing the acoustic guitar. Since a lesson where I could not wait to get out, I have gone from regular practising, to since then, only practising a couple of times since. The last few months now where I have not practised at all and so I have put it back in its own guitar bag, to keep the dust off.

 


I have now decided to sell my guitar because I just don’t have the right mindset, or motivation to play it. But I will always love the guitar and hearing the guitar. It saddens me that I have not been on it, but I know this won’t be enough to get back on it. I have put it on a back seat because of studies, which will go on a year or more. As well as this, I am learning a new hobby, which is crochet and I will probably learn a couple of more hobbies. I am loving the crochet and feel my brain has been exercised as I learn how to do the stitches.

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If I do decide to learn to drive, then this will be another distraction where I will always put the guitar on the back seat, so to speak. It will be nice knowing that hopefully soon, it will go to a good home, where someone will enjoy and appreciate it.