Just some dvd’s watched:
- The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel
- Bridget Jones Diary
- Bridget Jones The Edge of Reason
- Happy Feet
- After Earth
- The Lucky One
- The English Patient
- Stuart Little
- Stuart Little 2
And an old tv series I watched on dvd, lent to me, “Land of the Giants.”
I went to Ted Talk, to read transcript of Growth Mindset, by Carol Dweck, as recommended by a blogger in a comment in one of my earlier posts, on my last night of internet data allowance, with new starting the next day. I read the transcript with the video not being accessible to me. But even if it had been, I would not have had enough allowance to watch, with having to stay at home, unless it was essential, due to the lockdown because of the Coronavirus and so not using wifi at times. I found the talk interesting. I am glad there was a written transcript available.
When this post airs, I will have already finished my challenge. So how did I get on?
Out of those 40 days, 6 days of those, I did eat something on my banned list. But I am not going to knock myself for that and I didn’t at the time either, because it shown me my willpower had improved. When I did eat a sweet item, I only had a portion. I did not binge, or eat daily a sweet item, as much as I wanted to. So I am not like how I was before I started this challenge and this shows me I can treat myself to a sweet without binging. So I seem to be like how I used to be now, before I went off the tracks.
The way I shop as changed
Before the Coronavirus had started, I used to shop for groceries every couple of days, for things I needed, to top up what I used. So it was always a light shop. But when we had to stay in and only be allowed out for essentials and keeping it less as possible going for them, I changed my shop to twice a week. I plan to continue to do this from now on, when one day the world resumes and not in lockdown.
As you know already, whenever it came to buying things, I was going to do it mostly in cash this year, due to an issue I noticed last year when it came to paying by debit card.
Before the Coronavirus virus started, I tried a couple of places using my debit card, so I now have places where I can trust using and, where I don’t, which is just one place and the one that will have been the cause of last year. That one will only ever be by cash from now on. It’s nice to know who I can trust, because I will be making changes with the way I pay from this month, when it comes to groceries.
For those new and wondering what the issue was, I’m not going to explain again, as I don’t want to make this post long by doing so. It’s in an older post somewhere I written earlier this year. Plus, it’s not something I want to chat about again and lose focus with the rest of my post.
My mum is still not well to look after herself at home, mentally, as I mentioned in this post, (TW) I should have been dead before I was born.
Her new social worker got in touch with me via email to discuss discharge, which when time comes it will be a nursing home facility. So she wanted to make sure that even though I am not getting involved directly with my mum, to make sure if I wanted to have a say in her care, with it being such a big thing and to share any possible wishes mum may have had, should there been a time she would not be living at home.
Although I knew the nursing home option could happen, it’s not personally what I would have hoped for. I always wanted my mum to live as independently as possible, with support when required. But with mum how she is mentally, then this is what to be expected. I am upset that this is the route, its now become and although I have been told that sometimes there is a chance during the first 6 weeks that a person can be well enough to go back home, I doubt this will happen.
A Court of Protection will be in place for her fiances and an advocate for independent support.
I can become involved as little, or as much as I want, putting my own health and wellbeing first, as Social Worker put it, via our email discussion.
Normally, this kind of discussion would be face to face, but with the Coronavirus, means it has to be done by email. Hopefully, I will get to meet her at some point, when social distancing allows.
As this post airs, my mum could already be at the nursing home. The nursing home is not in the area preferred and unfortunately, it was in an area my mum avoids. So my concern was what this would, or could cause and why my mum avoids this area, which meant it also bought my past up, as the two are connected. I reassured my mum’s social worker that it didn’t triggered anything for me. But there would be an issue if a particular person by chance worked at this nursing home, as I wouldn’t be in the same room as him and I wouldn’t want him near my mum. My mum wouldn’t want him near her either. Or if she happened to be out and about with staff and passed this person in the area, it may start something with mum.
My mum thankfully though, has been compliant, when she was told about the nursing home.
Mum has had to come to an area not chosen, due to suitable homes in preferred areas could not take any patients on currently, due to being short staffed, because of the Coronavirus.
Looking at the website, I can see it will cater for my mum. It feels homely and they have a resident dog, which my mum will enjoy, as she looked forward to PAT dog coming to the ward. So I hope this place will open her up a little, or a lot, because currently, she doesn’t engage with other residents or staff well, on the ward. This is what I expected in the 5 minutes I last had with her back in November.
Although it’s not chosen area. I have said to my mum’s social worker that if it turns out in the end when they review my mum later after so many weeks, that nursing home is still the only option for my mum, that should she express that she likes it there and wants to stay, then I won’t be against her staying there. I will be happy, if she is.
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