Chit chat

My cat, Miley, had her teeth cleaned as mentioned in a previous chat. I picked her up in the evening, just in case if she was like before when it came to anesthetic; taking longer to come round. Miley was sleepy looking when I picked her up and she was like before; sleeping, but regardless how she felt, when we were home, she was obviously excited about being home and she was also ready for her food.
Miley shown her impatience for waiting for her food, by plodding around the room, while the fish was cooking in the oven. This was to be a small amount little and often that night and then she could have her usual food from the next day.
A couple of days later, Miley went back for her follow-up check-up, to make sure everything was ok and it was.

Miley, my cat, on the settee

As for me, I have had to bring my dental appointment check-up forward after finding a lump on my gum-line where I had my apicoectomy. (Learn about apicoectomy procedure here, which will take you to an external website.)
Everything had been going well since the apicoectomy and when I had my last treatment  at the dentist where he redone a filling to seal the other end of the root canal. I was just having follow-up appointment to keep check which the x-ray shown that the new bone was growing, but there was still more growth needed before the void was filled. I was also warned that there was still a risk that the infection could come back.
I have been that worried in the past of it coming back, that I have been back a few occasions in the past to be reassured everything was ok and my next appointment originally was September for a further follow-up check-up. It was only last month since all the first issues ever started a few years ago where I just started to relax about it, until recently one night, I just happened to look at my gum line and see a lump with like a head, as though it may ooze one day. This is the only difference this time, where before when I was concerned, I had nothing visually.
If it turns out that I have got another infection/abscess, then I will just get them to remove it. I don’t want any further root canal treatment and I don’t want another apicoectomy surgery.
Although I know I won’t be happy about asking to have it removed because this tooth being near the front of my mouth where it is on show when I talk, or smile, I am fed up with this cloud/worry that has always loomed over it. I will let you know what happens after my appointment, once it is confirmed.

Had a surprise on my lesson two of my ‘Health Care Foundation Course;’ I received a ‘High Merit.’ I was already prepared for receiving my next paper for lesson three, so as soon as it arrived, I worked on it and posted it. I just have two more lessons to go of this home study course and then it is completed.
Soon, I will sign up to the NARPS course I want to do. This course is done online compared to my other courses elsewhere. I am hoping there is a way I can print the courses off for my reference, as I like to keep things like this to look back on for future reminding. If I can’t, then it will be the old-fashioned way of pen and paper.

I have a book wish list for books I want to buy for knowledge and reference, for when I start my self-employment at some point. Some of these I have already ordered, using some of my savings. I have bought appropriate notebooks and other stationary ready and there is a filing cabinet to come soon. There is other necessary stuff to buy, or set up before I officially name and announce my business, but this will be when I have finished the course at NARPS, in case I pick anything new up from that to help. (Which I should.)

You will remember I talked about D.I.Y. Retreat at Home back in July. I have started preparing my D.I.Y. retreat, by creating this box of goodies just for that.

I won’t use all the goodies in one go, but this a selection to pick from on my pampering sessions/D.I.Y days I have.
The box was a plain box that I have decorated accordingly, which relates to what this box is about, so there are relaxing pictures as well as quotes. There are even some quotes on the inside of the box lid.

Next thing to do, it to decide what I will eat and do, or not do, to get the benefits. Once I know, it is booking my weekend in my diary to do it, so I stick to it. Then prior for that weekend, making sure I buy my food that I want.

Book review: “Anxiety: A self-help guide to feeling better,” by Wendy Green.

Anxiety is something I still suffer with, that can still creep up on me at times. Like my depression, I accept that anxiety will always be part of me and its taking each day as it comes.
I have managed my anxiety and depression, (including flashbacks) using techniques learnt in my counselling sessions as well as my own I have found that can help. Blogging helps too, along with sharpie and doodle drawings, to get things out of my system, that I might otherwise pent-up. But I thought I would read this book and see what else I may learn new.

This 172 page book that I bought from Amazon is easy to follow and it explains how psychological, genetic and dietary factors can contribute to anxiety. It offers practical advice and holistic approach to help you deal with the symptoms, like simple dietary and lifestyle changes, to DIY complementary therapies. It’s a book you can dip in and out of and read either all of it, or just what interests you. But I do suggest you at least read all of it the first time round.
I know personally myself, but also through my mental health course on reducing alcohol intake, which this book also suggests.
Also, caffeine is something I have cut down on a long time a go too. If I do drink a caffeinated drink, I do it more out than in, watching I don’t exceed a certain limit I set myself. This book suggests cutting this down too.
There are plenty of other suggestions in Chapter 2 of this book, in regards to healthy eating, which for me is what I mostly know, but it serves as a reminder to me.

It mentions about getting active, giving suggestions what we can try, and it discusses stress management and adopting an anti-anxiety attitude, which one of the things it suggests is CBT, that I have had in the past and found rather helpful.

At the back of the book there is a directory of contacts that offers information, support and products for sufferers of anxiety disorders. Some of these I have not heard of before and so I will be checking them out.

There is plenty of other information in this book, but if I go into it further, it would make this post very long to read. It’s a book staying on my bookshelf for future use.

Book review: “The Little Book of Mindfulness,” by Dr Patrizia Collard.

“The Little Book of Mindfulness,” by Dr Patrizia Collard is a “little” book, measuring only 15cm by 11cm. It has 96 pages of what hopes to be inspiration for the reader, of simple 5 to 10 minute practices of mindfulness.
I have read all the book for inspiration and although I have not practised any yet, there are many I am familiar with and if you have, or do Yoga, or Pilates yourself, then you will be familiar with some of the suggestions in this book too. But it is still perfect reminder.
What about the ones that I have given me new inspiration?
One example was ‘mindful eating,’ examining the food you are about to eat, looking at it like you have never seen it before, like a raisin for example. Holding it in the palm of your hand and noticing the difference in size, colour, form, weight and shape. Observing the ridges and the texture of the surface, so your vision can really have a feast on this. There are other suggestions while holding this fruit, before it leads onto smelling it, then tasting it and observing at that point as you chew the flavours, the change of consistency of the raisin and what you may notice completely new to you.

The contents of this book:

  • Introduction
  • Being in the now
  • Accept and respond
  • Making your mind up
  • Simply be
  • Mindful eating
  • Gratitude and compassion
  • Everyday mindfulness
  • Acknowledgments

 

Related post: 

Doodle and Mindfulness 

You may also like reading this post:

How do you Meditate,” over at https://lizalizaskysaregrey.com

D.I.Y. Retreat at Home

After sharing blog; “Going outwards and inwards,” in yesterday’s post, I have not stopped wondering about creating a D.I.Y. Retreat at Home for myself. But I wondered, could it be possible? After Googling the possibility, I realised it is possible and as well as suggestions at doing this at home, there were also suggestions of booking a hotel room and having your retreat there, taking what you need for your proposed retreat in your hotel room etc…
There are lots of help and advice out there to create your own retreat at home, whether it be a day, a weekend, or a week. Obviously, if you can manage to go on a retreat, just for a one-off experience, then there is nothing wrong in that and it would be a great experience, but it can be very expensive. But if you do it in the way the blogger did, that I shared in yesterday’s post, then having a lovely setting like she had and creating your own retreat of what you plan to do while there, certainly works out cheaper.

Has any readers done their own D.I.Y. retreat at home?

 

Blog share: “Going outwards and inwards.”

I would like to do a blog share and the blog I am sharing is, “Going outwards and inwards.” I have not long been following this blog, which is written by Nicole Dunn. You will find more about her, here on her “about” page.

What I wanted to particularly share on my blog, was these three posts of hers:

I found these posts, which she shared her solo retreat over three posts that she created for herself very interesting and inspiring. A solo retreat is something I have always wanted to do, whether planed by an organiser, or this case, created by oneself an appealing idea, as it would be an experience on something I have never done before.

Have you ever been on a solo retreat? Did you go on one already organised, or like this lady, did you create you own? Please share you experiences.

How to Embrace Self-Care

Talking about self-care in my previous post today, as a reminder for myself and to let you know what I was doing since my disappointing blow, I thought I’d look at other blog posts on self-care for further inspiration and I found this one. 🙂

self-care, yoga, meditation, health, nature,Trust me when I say, I know self-care can feel like another thing to add to your already overwhelming to-do list. When you’re already busy with just getting through the day-to-day stuff, self-care feels like a chore, an extra effort you just don’t have the energy, time or inclination for.

But trust me also when I say, self-care is worth the effort and will actually renew and boost your energy, creativity, and service to the world, whether that world is your family and loved ones, your community and society, or the planet at large.

Self-care is a sacred act if it’s done mindfully and with intention. When you take the time and treat yourself with love and worthiness, your cup truly will overflow and affect everyone around you.

If you start your self-care rituals slowly, with even minimal commitment I have faith that you’ll feel the benefits. Magically you may…

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Rewiring my brain to stay positive after my disappointing blow

After this post; Another disappointing blow which I shared my disappointment with you of not getting the job, I have since tried to keep a positive mind. Keeping a positive mind and going to a workplace I find where my self-esteem is challenged because of what has happened in the past and also this year is very tiring. Some days I just don’t want to get up and my anxiety can kick in some way. It’s hard work when you don’t feel appreciated and just don’t have a clue with your own department no more, which has led me to have no faith or trust because of what has happened,past and present. It has been soul-destroying at times and I had to take antidepressants, as well as counselling to help with this and past childhood issues that came out.

So what am I doing to try and keep this positive mind?

  • As SummerSHINES mentioned in the above post in my comments, see the job as temporary. This is something I have heard before while having difficult moments and it does help.
  • If I want, or need extra hours, then I am going to see this as temporary also. But also I have control in where I would like to clean, by picking of a list that takes my fancy. So I could pick an area where I know it will only be me cleaning it, if I wanted.
  • Try to make sure I continue to practice self-care.
  • Continue with my current studies and enjoy the moment and experience.
  • Continue to enjoy the experience of my driving lessons and look forward to what the future can bring with this.
  • Continue to do things that will take me outside my comfort zone, when I can.